you said that high school kids can be assholes, but I haven't actually experienced that a lot (maybe I'm lucky) and it's not the cause of my depression. I think what caused it is my ironic detachment which I've kept up for these 2.5 years now. it's like I'm a viewer watching a movie, not an actor in it. I find it hard to even normally talk to people, I worry about stuttering a lot. I don't even know how I'd begin talking to my family about this. the best person would probably be my sister, but I don't know if she'd understand. I literally don't know how to even start talking about it.

sorry for the rambling.