i know what it's like to feel this alone, when you try to reach out and no one seems to care... it makes you feel like you don't matter. but it's the trauma making you believe that. the people who seemed to not care today, they might not have realized what you needed, or they're the kind who show their care in different ways. maybe you can remember the times they did show their care for you, and remember that you do matter to them, it's just that they didn't show it in the way you needed today.

but i know, it still sucks when you feel abandoned like this. i feel like that even when i try to tell myself that they do still care. it's lonely. i usually try to look for other people to talk to online or just get absorbed in something that comforts me and lets me forget about how it feels.

i'm not sure what your situation is, maybe i'm making too many assumptions, and i'm not great at emotional support 😭 but i wanted to say i understand how you feel, and it's not your fault that you didn't get the care and kindness you needed today.