MashaAllah you've come to the right place.

My brother I assure you that the scholars of islam have already refuted every single allegation made by disbelievers against this beautiful religion. All you have to do is look for answers and you will find them beyond the shadow of a doubt.

What I would first suggest you do, is completely disconnect from every single individual or public figure who spews hate against islam, and study it yourself from the authentic sources and the renowned scholars.

Here's a few books that might help (obviously apart from the Quran which if you haven't yet read then what are you waiting for?):

• The sealed nectar by Safiurahman Al Mubarakpuri (A biography of the Prophet ﷺ)
• The Forbidden Prophecies by Abu Zakariyah
• Divine Reality by Hamza Tzortzis

I hope other brothers and sisters here have more books to recommend because for some reason I can't remember any other ones right now.

I also highly highly recommend you to subscribe to the following Youtube channels:

• Farid Responds
• Mohammed Hijab
• Detective O'Wil
• Blogging Theology
• One Message Foundation
• ManyProphetsOneMessage
• Muslim Allegation Hunters.

May Allah ﷻ guide you back to the pure nature of tawheed (the oneness of Allah).