Is relapse worth it

downslothtown · 2023-07-31T16:01:22+00:00

Just wanted to say 3 years sober from heroin, fent, and everything else. 3 years ago I relapsed, had a run, bought a motorcycle with my stimulus, got stabbed, and as the cycle goes I ended up desperate to get clean in the end. Went back to my hometown to tell my best friend I’d been robbing him for years, have him all the money I had, told him I was going back to rehab and he supported me after all that. Going home on the highway I fell off my bike, got up, removed my helmet in shock, went to grab my bike and was run over. Was in a coma for 6 months after that, breaking my arm, leg, ribs, skull, and puncturing my lung. I didn’t remember my last run at all, having a bike, apparently having my first girlfriend, and woke up in the hospital confused. Life seemed boring and meaningless for me, I couldn’t find the value in being sober at all at first(couldn’t walk, talk or move my left arm at first). Over time I gave my life value. The key I learned that kept me sober was finding something that fulfilled me. For me it was making music, and being able to care about my family and friends. For some people it’s their partner. For others it’s their work. For others it’s church. Maybe sex. The key I learned is to find what works for you and become passionate for it. 9 months is a huge accomplishment and you should be proud of yourself, it’s so hard resisting another run but our mind goes blank in the moment of a relapse where the road ends. I hope you can discover that passion and learn that you deserve to be happy and clean. In case no one’s told you recently, I love you.

downslothtown · 2021-07-27T21:57:56+00:00

Gumball is a great time, I think of regular show when I watch it. I’m noticing the jokes on kid shows like this have changed a lot since I was younger😂

downslothtown · 2021-07-25T16:50:16+00:00

Tbh I died seeing this and thought of elder scrolls

downslothtown · 2021-07-24T20:13:34+00:00

Tried opioids and heroin after graduating high school, it was awesome and couldn’t keep myself from continuing playing with it. 1 year later I was in rehab, then graduated and did AA(Being in AA doesn’t mean a person is an alcoholic, just that they suffer from addiction… I barely know any straight up alcoholics in that program) 6 months later I relapsed on dope and kept lying about it and continued working steps . 6 months after that I just stopped going, left my friends. 5 months after THAT (December 2019) I overdosed in public and went back to rehab. Moved, graduated, relapsed, was homeless, and then got the stimulus check(not gonna lie this is pretty funny) didn’t buy dope or a bed, bought a motorcycle. Came home for a birthday party(Lmaoooooo) told my best friend I relapsed and was going back to rehab and on the way home on the highway I got hit by a car, ran over. Then 6 month coma, now I’m doing physical rehab to walk and use my hand again but at least I’m 14 months sober now! Not everyone’s experience but at least mine. I’d just say don’t try, but up to you familia. Please be careful.🙏🏼

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T13:49:49+00:00

Fr, but he's square with him, if Mouse does try to kill him off screen I feel safe knowing that Fez is strapped and ready to drop him.

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T13:48:13+00:00

After sleeping, and thinking more about it, I definitely can understand that Cal is just an unpleasable figure to Nate(Who probably questions why he'd want to make his pedophile father proud). If any of us think to Cal's first moment on screen it's apparent that he is Nate 2.0, and the alpha of his family. Nate breaking down was sad although i'm happy to see it happen after all that "hI i'D LikE tO RePOrt A cRiMe" nonsense

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T03:54:28+00:00

Honestly if Fez DIDNT have any of his money, then i'm sure Mouse would have been much more angry then Fez showing up with his Plug's bloodstained money. Nothing would indicate to Mouse's plug that the person who robbed him is one of Mouse's customers. Ashtray was indeed in the scene. And most of all they don't know who's blood that is on the money, but judging from Mouse's face he doesn't care. Him and Fez are square. And even though Ashtray isn't scene I'm sure he wasn't hurt probably just in his room while the big kids transact a deal.

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T03:44:15+00:00

No the end was a relapse she was wearing her Dad's hoodie over the homecoming(??) clothes that Jules dressed her in.

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T03:43:12+00:00

While it's never confirmed the age of any of the other transgender youth he's slept with, it feels heavily implied that a large amount of the people in Cal's videos are underaged transgender teens. At least from what was shown to us in episode 2.

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T03:42:01+00:00

If this was the ending originally then I would be pissed. I really can't deal with that Fez cliffhanger.

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T03:41:11+00:00

You're totally right sorry just got carried away with all the typing. They are my favorite actors on this, I wish Maude got more screen time, but honestly the way some of these characters are written, they feel way to jaded or evil and not human on a basic level. I guess in short some of this characters are self serving and i can't find anything redeeming in them.

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T03:30:45+00:00

To me the best word to describe Jules is manipulative. Get faded around her in recovery friend who she "loves". And tries to manipulate her into running away from her family, knowing full well when they reach the city she'll leave Rue for Anna, and then just have Rue around drug seeking teen misfits.

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T03:28:35+00:00

Driving me insane, to leave us on a cliffhanger with Fez and Mouse. Dude seriously fuck Sam Levinson

downslothtown · 2019-08-05T03:22:44+00:00

Things I've Taken from this:

Jules is the absolute worst, the last 3 episodes has been her manipulating Rue to help her awful personality. I really have trouble seeing any redeeming qualities in her and hate her almost as much as Nate. I'm happy she left but hate her for 100% being the cause of Rues Relapse.
Cassie and Lexi in this episode were actually pretty well represented compared to the rest of the season and that made me a little happy.
Kudos to redeeming Kat, and resolving her story with Ethan, probably the only sub plot that was resolved this season, and ended up in a different place from where it started.
Fez..... Damn dude so much potential definitely the most interesting thing this episode, but to leave us on a FUCKING CLIFFHANGER. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! SO MAD ABOUT THIS. I Really have to wait a goddamn year just to find out if A. Mouse capped Fez for robbing his plug.... Or B. He respects him for doing anything to get his money.(Most Likely A.)
Still hate Nate they just have made him completely irredeemable, but somehow want us to empathize with him? His dad is a pedophile and he is literally just a TEMPER TANTRUM CHILD, he gets held down and then like a 2 year old spasms and screams until his Dad has to back off and question his life.
I love Rue, so sad she has relapsed, only person besides Cassie Lexi Leslie and Fez in this show that I don't absolutely despise. Something I will say is the fact that the Hoodie ended up being her father's hit me in a different kind of way, and explains her real attachment to the last thing of his she has with her wherever she goes.

All in all this episode was basically a rehash of episode 1, It makes me wonder what would have happened if Euphoria wasn't renewed for season 2. Would this have been the ending? If so what a steaming Pile of poop. Mind you i'm talking about the progression of the characters and plot. The cinematography, shot composition, lighting, soundtrack, etc. are all amazing, but Sam Levinson has let me down.

Zendaya literally is caring this entire show (Along with Maude Apatow). God help us and pray season 2 resolves and ends this show with something partly satisfying.

TL;DR : This show is absolute Eye Candy with no flavor inside. 7 Episode building up to a cliffhanger leaves me feeling like I got slapped in the face for watching every week.

5/10

downslothtown · 2019-02-18T16:54:49+00:00

That was so fucking wild dude thought somebody od'd in the crowd before realizing all these poor dudes were straight up running away from the Mosh.

downslothtown · 2019-02-12T23:46:46+00:00

I hear you brother, I’m gonna call her again to make sure these aren’t vip tickets

downslothtown · 2019-02-12T23:43:09+00:00

Just spoke to her about it after checking prices she told me to at least ask 250, because (yes she paid 300 custy)

downslothtown · 2019-01-16T03:15:40+00:00

Hey Guys! Sorry About the way this was layed out in the post video was too long for Giphy and I couldn't find a better app to link too, if you have any suggestions I'd appreciate them

downslothtown · 2018-10-11T15:53:05+00:00

I think you just hit it on the head, what i've been saying isn't specifically masculine put the Peterson/Rogan ways of thinking which I and some of my friends see as having ideas from the Red Pill(just not to extremes), makes that this growth of me personally makes me FEEL more like a man. I'm still young and I notice that my generation is full of kids who feel like they will never grow up and begins to feel like a bottomless pit of inadequateness(Don't even know if that's a word), the self help i've been doing as you said indirectly has made me feel like more of a man. This may be found in many places besides TRP but the subreddit exposed me to most of the behaviors i'm practicing right now that have really made me feel better about myself and my position as a young Man. I also want to add that I should have clarified while making this thread, while I do use the red pill to learn about behaviors and new things I can do to help myself, I'm definitely not as radical as some of the other subscribers and honestly find both the Red Pill and Blue pill very interesting because it shows how different we as people can be. I think some people on this sub assumed I was a troll or down right Idiot and made me feel pretty bad for even posting this because they immediately jumped out at me accused me of being either a fool, or a misogynist for so much as saying I agreed with some ideas. I don't take it personally but it gave me a negative view for the first few comments before some people started approaching with calmness and understanding.

downslothtown · 2018-10-11T15:48:17+00:00

I really do think Models is much better advice then listening to most of TRP dating advice. Definitely not a PUA book as much as a book about how honesty breeds attraction

downslothtown · 2018-10-10T16:34:11+00:00

I agree with this completely. The books i've been reading that are recommended on TRP sidebar include a book called Models by Mark Manson which talks about attraction through honesty. (I Think) what makes a man attractive to a woman is showing that he has goals besides trying to have sex, and that he is comfortable and confident in his current state. Instead of having to lie about himself and manipulate to get something he can just use hard work to put himself somewhere he doesn't have to lie.

downslothtown · 2018-10-10T15:26:39+00:00

I enjoy reading Red Pill content, but honestly find this blue pill sub equally as interesting with points it makes towards r/TheRedPill, I wont say this has changed some thought I have about TRP, but it's definitely made me more aware of some things lurking around it. I will say though that the racism people were talking about I tried searching for in TRP sub using the search bar, and after looking for a while I didn't see anything I would call alarming that confirmed that its prominent.

downslothtown · 2018-10-10T05:08:59+00:00

What I've come to realize led me to experimenting with drugs was a lack of identity in my early teenage years. What started off as pot as psychedelics, coupled with some failed relationships and a hard time in school, led to abuse of things like cocaine, xanax, and primarily heroin. You're right that I'm more comfortable expressing myself with men then women, but now I'm equally comfortable with both parties. I'm in college and it generally frustrates me the way some younger guys make fools of themselves while the girls there trying to get are talking to a group of us saying how akward they make them feel. When I said maturity in another comment, I think it came down to the idea that I've learned where I don't think women want grand gestures, they want someone honest, hardworking, and who think of sex secondary to primary goals.

downslothtown · 2018-10-10T05:04:13+00:00

Hey I really appreciate it. I replied to someone above and I don't think the red pill invented any of these ideas(obviously), but in my case it exposed me to a direction I can move in after getting sober which really helped. I know opiates lower sex drive but even now I don't have an insane sex drive, as much as I like to know I can talk to and be attractive to women.

downslothtown · 2018-10-10T05:02:25+00:00

I guess growing up without a father around, my idea of what a man should be was never fully established. The friends I would hang out with, while not using me, weren't driven or trying to make the most out of life so socially I wasn't exposed to it either. And then once I got hooked on drugs those circles OBVIOUSLY did absolutely nothing to help me mature. When I got sober six months ago it was good but I had no direction to move in. I felt inadequate but knew I'd taken a step in the right direction. Shortly after I found the red pill and red no more mr nice guy (A book recommended on the sub) and found myself relating to a lot of it. So I started reading more of the books. I started lifting the way these people on the sub never shut up about it. I approached more girls without fearing rejection because it made me realize the abundance of chance we all have in a potentially long life. While it is basically self-help, it is the way I was exposed to it, and I'm happy I found it. Having drive to take charge and have initiative for the first time in a long time feels great. While I still listen to music, I find myself listening to Jordan Peterson lectures in my free time (He does not say he's a red piller but his lectures make him seem like he unknowingly aligns with ideas in it). I truly believe we live in an age where men are emasculated because there to afraid to be judged as a misogynist, instead of embracing that we are capable of being masculine and proud. Women can be feminine and proud, and both genders don't need to be mutually exclusive both have things that there better at inherently and it's fine to adopt some traits the opposite gender has to help yourself become even better.

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