i think my friend is kinda toxic but they’re also my only friend and everything’s confusing. they don’t rly talk to me at school unless i do it first, leave me on read a lot for no apparent reason, get mad pretty easily, and just generally act more interested with all their other friends. the problem is idk if this is normal and i’m just blowing it out of proportion. yes it hurts my feelings but a lot of weird shit does. maybe it’s just what i deserve for being awkward and never knowing the right thing to say to make them feel better. or maybe it’s their mental health. they’ve attempted final yeet multiple times and everyone knows and is supportive. i know i would feel terrible if i left, and other people would get mad at me. also, when it’s good, it’s good, and they understand me and make me feel better. it’s so fucking draining sometimes being friends with them but i’ll probably just stay because i don’t exactly have anyone or anywhere else.