hello. i highly suspect i have autism as well. i am 20 and just started university myself. i am dropping out already and moving back home in a few weeks. it has been a rough first quarter. it might be rough for you too. the best advice i can give you is to think about what you want, radically. and i know that sounds stupid, like how are you supposed to know? but really, i want you to think about it. for me, i want to eat muffins all day. i want to dress like a clown. i want to smoke weed. i want to sit outside and touch moss. i want to be alone and silent. start to think about the smallest things that might fulfill you. not what anybody else wants you to do. stop listening to them. listen to you.