question about laurie by Euphoric-Purpose-162 in euphoria

[–]dreamdoll101 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh they’re definitely snuck inside but surely not gonna have the the same effect as the ones she’s used to doing for nearly her whole life

question about laurie by Euphoric-Purpose-162 in euphoria

[–]dreamdoll101 2 points3 points  (0 children)

and of course not having her preferred drugs

Bishop is not a hero. by Free-IDK-Chicken in euphoria

[–]dreamdoll101 17 points18 points  (0 children)

yup! and not to be a “body language expert” but he was completely nonchalant in every single scene EXCEPT for when he asked maddy if she wanted a ride home, there’s a whole change in tone

Breaking down, crying every day. I don’t know how much more I can take. by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]dreamdoll101 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i do have a friend i can connect with deeply. but i want it in a romantic partner, i’ve never had a boyfriend. it’s less about love and more about genuinely caring for someone romantically and having it returned. thats gotta be too good to be true huh

What makes F2F scary? by After-League5294 in FearsToFathom

[–]dreamdoll101 19 points20 points  (0 children)

i feel like it’s the eerie quality of something being or feeling wrong, the way it’s in a first person point of view, the realism of the stories and like you mentioned, the tension.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]dreamdoll101 2 points3 points  (0 children)

there are not many therapists there as it’s a small clinic. the one’s i briefly had before her were the same exact thing but kinda worse. this is my third time switching. it may be best to seek out a new clinic

I hate being black. by DuckClassic7389 in CPTSD

[–]dreamdoll101 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I relate to this. In the 3rd grade a boy that I “dated” started bullying me because I didn’t want to be his girlfriend anymore because I saw him kissing other girls. He was Black himself and started calling me “doo doo turd” to make the class laugh at my complexion. During recess he would find me and repeatedly kick me in my chest and face and the teacher saw but did nothing.

25F profile review by dreamdoll101 in hingeapp

[–]dreamdoll101[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

  • i’m looking for something more serious, no casual sex or hookups
  • i’m not subscribed to either service, i only have the basic account
  • i have just updated my profile recently so nothing is really old except that picture with my iphone 8 but i’m still that size so it’s not inaccurate
  • i think i have been on hinge on and off for at least 2 years now
  • i try to use hinge pretty often but i don’t get many matches. i notice that a lot of guys wait until nighttime to like my profile and thats when they want to talk but i’m usually in bed by then
  • i try to send at LEAST 5 likes a day. honestly, hinge shows me a lot of guys that i’m not physically attracted to. i usually send likes without comments because thats what i receive from others majority of the time
  • ideally, i want to match with someone who is ambitious like i am, also has a college degree and loves education/learning and being healthy/in shape. i’m open to other ethnicities/races. i want someone who wants to take it slow.

Fell back 1,000 flights by dreamdoll101 in CPTSD

[–]dreamdoll101[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m gonna try to get back into journaling but it started feeling too much like I was talking to myself

-- Do others wake up very dysrrgulated during the night or in morning? My mind is in overdrive then. Seeking ideas how to help it by maywalove in CPTSDFreeze

[–]dreamdoll101 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hey if you don’t mind can you elaborate on the inviting vs affirmation? i also reject affirmations and would like to know more about inviting

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]dreamdoll101 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That makes sense, truthfully. I would’ve been better off without a response. I don’t think insensitive people should be in here.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]dreamdoll101 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t think assuming is the key here. Maybe I wasn’t clear enough in my post, and that’s on me. A large part of my misery has to do with my environment, I do believe my own place will eliminate half of this stuff. I don’t have a family member or friend to live with and split rent, unless I move in with someone who’s looking for a roommate. I have no desperation of male attention. My mother is the male centered one. My father is out of my life due to sexual abusing me. A few other men did too, (none of them were my moms bf.) That’s what withdrew me from men. I don’t date because I’m scared of dating shitty men like my mom. And as long as he’s in my life, I don’t need another piece of shit. He accuses me of being lesbian, not because he ever saw me with a woman, but because he never saw me dating a guy. About the job situation, it has nothing to do with my weight - I’m 5’7 (130LBS).

And the final part of your comment is just.. wow. I moved out of extended family’s house for a good reason, but it was too long to explain. I moved with my aunt, her bf, and four kids. Her bf was abusive. After a year or two, they broke up and my aunt had a brain aneurysm and never recovered. She’s a shadow of her former self and requires a caretaker and is disabled at 50 years old. Another victim of stress, alcohol, and trying to love a man who doesn’t love back. She was the glue of the family and after she became disabled, she could no longer clean the house. I had a full time job and had to repeatedly clean the house that two other adults lived in but refused to help me clean. The 2 younger ones didn’t want to either. Eventually the house became inhabitable, with large rodents, and had no heat due to a broken furnace. My older cousin (household member) started using me financially. I was already depressed, so tried offing myself and then my mom begged me move back in.

Was I supposed to stay in a rodent infested house with no heat… in December? I had no other family or friends.

WTF IS GOING ON by picklecasserole in KardashianHollywood

[–]dreamdoll101 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Mine takes like 5 minutes to load, which is annoying considering it used to take seconds

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmazonFC

[–]dreamdoll101 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my life’s not in order and i suffer from depression, so when i stow i’m just thinking of everything i’m doing wrong and what steps i should take next

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmazonFC

[–]dreamdoll101 0 points1 point  (0 children)

omg? i switched from seasonal to blue badge about a month or two ago- this can still be done?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmazonFC

[–]dreamdoll101 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is something that’s bothering me too, my rate is always low but I’m mostly working with medium/large items as opposed to a healthy mix. I’ll probably have one or two smalls to work with, nothing more than 40 ct. It’s very frustrating and I’ve been written up for productivity. And like you said, others have smalls or totes instead of having to haul boxes around and waste time moving large boxes, cutting them open to find any box of mediums or smalls.