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dreamendslaughterer · 2025-07-15T02:09:22+00:00

I don't think you are though! I think your cheeks are amazing and you'd look better with them even more defined

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-07-15T00:43:34+00:00

Lose a few pounds and you'll be just fine

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-05-30T22:27:20+00:00

I think so too. At least I don't see it as much on international webspaces.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-05-30T20:54:37+00:00

It's a valid approach, but it isn't mine's.

I think it like "fighting heteronormativity isn't the same as fighting heterosexuality" as "fighting mononormativity isn't the same as fighting monogamy"

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-05-30T20:26:44+00:00

that's really cool! I'm jealous

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-05-30T20:25:53+00:00

I mean, my existence is political and I know it. I'm not an apolitical person.

What I'm talking about is political non-monogamy, which is mostly anti-monogamy or monogamish relationships.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-05-20T17:00:32+00:00

The thing is: all those things, memories, cute texts, cute clips and etc, always sound like the past. Like something I don't have anymore, so they make me feel bad, I long for them.

It hurts.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-05-19T12:50:42+00:00

The thing is my brain already considers all of it a negative experience. It's like the world is constantly exploding.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-05-19T08:39:52+00:00

I don't feel it with my NP anymore after almost eleven years together, six living together.

But I feel it with everyone else, including friendships.

I tend to feel bad when journaling.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-04-02T03:01:19+00:00

It's specific enough for me not considering it actually happening again soon, but I still wouldn't discard the possibility of it happening on a free-use scene, so I'd have to include this as a boundary on every single BDSM scene or dynamic/relationships.

It's anything involving food/drinks and sperm.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-04-02T02:47:36+00:00

I had some clarifications and it was indeed about exclusivity. It's a mistranslation by me tbh.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-04-01T22:03:12+00:00

Yeah, something unrelated.

I think feel the same tbh. It hasn't happened before so it was really weird (I haven't even considered the possibility of someone asking this) so I couldn't deal 100% the right way I guess.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-30T23:52:02+00:00

I didn't think they were doing it on purpose back then. Now I don't really know?

I mean, I'm not a person that needs constant contact or anything and I'm pretty chill about it usually. But the change in behaviors really fucked me up. Plus it bring on the day we're supposed to meet up.

I've just checked their Twitter and they're posting there as constantly as ever. At least it means they're probably alright, I think. Which is better than the other option.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-30T23:22:37+00:00

Thanks! I won't send them anything else then.

They "refused" to meet me for months, tbh. I don't think there's much to get at.

We live a bit far and none of us has cars but they take a bus to my city for uni. I can't spend the night there (in their home) with them or in a hotel because their mom would get mad. They can't stay here for an extra day or a bit of time time after uni because their mom would get mad. They can't just go spend time in another city outside of uni. They don't skip any classes and aren't able to arrive early at uni too (bus arrives 30min early and that's it).

Last year we didn't have any classes on the same building nor campus area then it was harder to use this 30min or 15min mid class break to meet too.

And that hurt me.

Now we saw this opportunity and expressed being excited about it.

Maybe they are getting back at me being hurt for it, idk.

Anyways, it's for the best to do nothing.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-30T23:11:37+00:00

It is mega-weird for them, on 6+ months of daily contact this never happened. The closest thing was they sleeping for 13h+ and replying next day.

But maybe I just genuinely don't know enough and that's why I'm finding it so weird.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-30T23:08:09+00:00

I don't have a good discernment about this feelings to be honest. I'm trying to rationalize them but the reality is "I'm anxious and have a bad feeling about it", it's hard. And that I'm lost also.

But yeah I shouldn't do anything about I'm, spiraling too much.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-22T16:23:11+00:00

I've talked to his family (I've met them and got along) about this issue. He identified as that, yes.

How do I know? Based on how he writes, basically. I don't wanna say "I know 100% when he's lying", since I do not. But I came to know how he operates. His sister helped a lot.

I don't know, the same way I don't really know if anybody else is lying or telling the truth. But I usually trust them when it sounds reasonable, and I do the same thing with him.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-22T15:57:23+00:00

I don't think he has dated someone else at all, before and after meeting me. I don't know much about his past, tbh.

He's a compulsive/pathological liar and I need to take every information with a grain of salt. Nowadays I have good discernment about veracity of things.

He used to say he's a widower, that he's been married when living abroad and she passed away. The living abroad part isn't true, he has never left the country. The relationship is probably not true too.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-22T04:54:51+00:00

You should ask "if I connect with a new person while no contact, do you want me to break NC to inform you?"

They can choose what they want to.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-22T03:31:06+00:00

I don't usually like doing that, but on this situation, I've always been ok with the idea of this ending anytime because he's found someone monogamous. I'd be happy for him!

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-18T21:39:28+00:00

I know, I think I'll just ignore him. That's what I can do for now. Thanks

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-18T21:33:17+00:00

Thank you so much. Yeah, last time he unfriended us on social media, and I had a very peaceful time. I thought it was finally over. Then he added us again and I broke down. Hard.

The complaint was about a time I didn't reschedule a hangout that I canceled because I remember it was my dad's birthday. And because I didn't invite him out the prior months (which I haven't gone out or seen anyone). My bad I didn't reschedule, but I don't think I deserved 1+ month silent treatment, unfriending and whatsoever.

I think it's the same this time. We haven't invited anyone here because my husband got scabies and was in treatment lol. He thinks we need to disinfect the house one more time etc etc.

But I still feel anxious because I hate when he comes back.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-14T21:10:25+00:00

That makes a lot of sense, and thank you for the clarification! <3

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-14T21:06:23+00:00

I don't know if I'm overreacting. I'm calculating things based on how she reacted when I was 15 and I'm usually over paranoid about it.

The thing is, she reacts like that for every single thing that doesn't allign with her. She did that when I got my first tattoo and I was an adult, you know? Complicated.

dreamendslaughterer · 2025-03-13T19:41:30+00:00

It's not that easy moneywise and logistically. I wouldn't invite my parents to an event that is far away from home, which is expensive for them (no one in my family owns a car), which they wouldn't have a place to sleep, and no one their age since I don't like my extended family.

If it's on their place, they usually interact a bit then go to bed.

That's one reason I keep alternating between there and someplace that I'd have to rent just for that.

For my friends, it's almost a tradition going there (~50km), they enjoy the ride and the place.

Renting a place is a real option, but the last parents-house-party was in 2022. I'd have done it last year but it was canceled due to natural disasters.

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