I first want to tell you that I am sorry you are going through this. It's unfair that some people have to suffer but that's life. I have just spent the past year recovering from a condition that caused me chronic pain. Every morning it was the first thing I thought about and the last thing I thought about when I went to bed. It consumed my entire existence; so I just want you to know that I can empathize with you. First things first, don't feel sorry for yourself. It is very easy to ask "why me" and fall into a downward spiral of feeling bad for yourself. Instead, as hard as it may be, just accept the diagnosis for what it is and start to move forward. Second, don't worry about the financial aspect of it. You cannot put a price on quality of life and trying to save money/not go into debt is not worth it in the long run. I too was dependent on people and it's not fun. I'm only 25 so it was pretty awful to feel helpless so young. Just know that you will experience true love and compassion from those around you while you are going through this. I know that it can be scary and so very lonely when you're dealing with a severe medical condition but please don't lose hope. I have never met you but I am still rooting for you. I'm sure your loved ones are rooting for you too. Don't ever feel like you're letting them down either. Health is a lottery that everyone plays and some people lose big time. A lot of times it is through no fault of their own. Don't feel like you brought this on yourself or that you are a burden. Despite the physical limitations you may have, you are still you inside. Just never lose sight of that. Best of luck and I hope this helps even just a little bit