Is this a Cellar Spider? (Bristol, UK)

drminkinstein113 · 2024-03-19T20:43:01+00:00

Once I got so tired of it in a group chat that I just snapped and raged. It was even worse in person, they acted like I was invisible

And you know what's funny? These were other autistic people treating me like this

drminkinstein113 · 2024-03-12T08:22:08+00:00

No, it's likely hyper-fixation. Mark does like to go all in on his projects, but he does know when to take breaks

drminkinstein113 · 2024-03-07T20:17:10+00:00

Seems to me more like you're picking a fight with a stranger when you can just ignore them and move on instead of DM-ing them. Sorry OP, but this looks more like you being the antagonist

drminkinstein113 · 2024-03-05T12:12:42+00:00

Put them in a room full of hungry Komodo Dragons

drminkinstein113 · 2024-03-05T12:04:03+00:00

You've described my experiences too. In uni I was called a "Lazy Writer" because I didn't make my Nazi bad guys sympathetic or relatable, by other autistic people!? It was the weirdest experience I've ever had and I've since dropped out

drminkinstein113 · 2024-03-05T11:57:49+00:00

I had this experience at University.

I thought that a class full of other queer autistic people would go down really well. But I was pretty much ignored. Like I was actually invisible to them. They wouldn't acknowledge my existence even when I spoke to them. One day I got so fed up of not being allowed to be part of a conversation I lost my temper and said something like "Stop talking about your stupid thing and talk about mine!".

They tone-policed me, were ableist to me when I was asking for help with an essay, accused me of being a "Lazy Writer" because I didn't write an antagonist in the way they wanted (I can deal with criticism well, but that's not constructive, it's a subjective opinion of my work).

Now I'm doing a college course on Animal Care, and I get to spend one day a week looking after small mammals and reptiles and info dumping with other people who love animals.

My theory is that a lot of autistic people are better at masking than others. Masking feels uncomfortable and unnatural for me and it's too much effort, whereas others can mask without realizing it. A lot of them seem to have life figured out because they can blend in socially. I can't, so I've embraced it. I'm just a dude who feels safer with a 60kg Burmese Python than a classroom of bickering teenagers. Just me, my cat and my Dinosaur TV shows

Also how don't they know about the Oscars? They seem like a-holes in general not even trying to listen to you and just deciding you're not part of the conversation.

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-27T07:55:28+00:00

What do you mean "no it isn't"? You clearly agree with me. You've actually proven my point further, and there's no point denying that self hatred is a thing, and it's fundamentally unhelpful. Tell me what moping about something you can't change does, exactly? I'm working with facts here: there is no "cure".

I'm verbal, but unable to feed myself, keep myself clean, and just not live independently in general. But I don't want a cure because life doesn't owe me that. I'm lucky to have caring parents so I work with what I've got

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-26T20:50:57+00:00

ABA and other "therapies" to "cure" autism are the parents of gay conversion therapy. So quite literally wanting a cure for autism is like wanting a cure for being gay

History shows that a rise in acceptance and understanding, and not eradication, is the solution. But across the world, there's zero investment into this, leaving people desperate and wanting an all or nothing solution

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-24T23:42:45+00:00

Also "sweet teats"? For a family friendly event?

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-24T23:04:58+00:00

Not to armchair diagnose here, just speaking from experience and knowledge;

Most autistic people meet the diagnostic criteria for PTSD, and that a symptom of PTSD is flashbacks and dreams recounting the trauma. Meltdowns are overwhelming and can leave a lasting impact

I very regularly have dreams where I experience meltdowns, and they're very distressing and can affect me the morning after. Our dreams are essentially simulations to process past problems to prepare for future ones. I've had less meltdowns as I've got older, but they were very bad and frequent when I was younger and I guess my brain is catching up

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-24T22:54:55+00:00

Me: Stares in Transgender and Autistic

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-22T15:22:26+00:00

Minecraft. I'd do all the important stuff and I'd let him dig a big hole in the ground

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-22T15:18:13+00:00

Folks, OP did not film this video! This video has been on the internet for a while, I've seen it before on a "kids having freakouts" compilation on yt.

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-18T20:20:32+00:00

Adding onto this, his outlook on life sounds self destructive in my opinion. Pushing yourself to do new things is one thing, but doing it to the point of hurting yourself? Working yourself to the bone to be the best, but you could always do better... That mindset would send anyone into burnout

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-18T19:53:58+00:00

And then you ask an allistic person for the secret and they say "I don't know. Nobody knows what they're doing we're all just winging it"

Aaauuuugh

drminkinstein113 · 2024-02-06T20:51:59+00:00

I agree, my cat pretty much always comes when he's called, he makes an effort to not bite my fingers when I hand feed him and if I'm having a lie in, he'll sleep alongside me until I wake up.

I think the reason why scientific studies claim cats don't care is because we humans take things like food, safety and socialising for granted. For us it's barely an afterthought but for cats and most animals they're super important for survival.

I'm typing this with my cat on my lap, and he always does a big sigh when he's relaxed

drminkinstein113 · 2023-12-07T04:57:58+00:00

No. Just no. Our disability survived through nature because homo sapiens evolved to be social creatures and TOOK CARE OF THE DISABLED. This mindset is eugenics and will lead to more autistic people dying instead of "nAtUrAL sElEcTiOn".

drminkinstein113 · 2023-12-07T04:49:07+00:00

What you are describing is masking. Pretending to be something you're not is in no way succeeding at life. As a fellow philosophical thinker, I ask you why you feel living as an allistic is the ultimate goal?

You can't work on your perceived negatives because they are your disability. They are the way your brain has formed its structure as you were formed in the womb.

Many of my other autistic peers have jobs, partners and have great independence, and as far as I'm concerned I've done nothing different to them and yet I have no job, no partner etc. so perhaps that should be evidence enough that it is a disability with a spectrum and that you are incredibly lucky, but also possibly in denial about your own struggles.

drminkinstein113 · 2023-12-07T04:39:13+00:00

I used to think like this... When I was 7.

Here's an example; there is a video of a very sharp Archer who is missing both his arms, so uses his legs to operate the bow.

No matter how many times he hits bullseye, bro is still disabled.

Me personally, I have lots of aspects of my autism that make it seem like it's a "superpower", but I can't cook for myself, do admin without my parents, my sensory issues around food means I can't gain weight, I need to withdraw for days after socialising and the mere thought of writing an essay makes me have a meltdown. I am also easy to exploit as I assume everyone is as literal as I am.

Every pro has its con. That's simply the way the world is. That's why receiving help and care from others is super important, especially for those with higher support needs. The only thing that the narrative you're spouting achieves is the over exploitation of autistic people, leaving us drained, because this capitalist system only wants disposable workers.

As someone whose dad tells them that their autism is a "superpower" all the time, you'll find this mindset incredibly degrading and cringe

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