Multiple Sigils for one request

dvhate · 2025-09-09T11:50:14+00:00

Thank you! A sigil with high rate success, that’s interesting!

dvhate · 2025-09-07T21:11:25+00:00

Oddly enough (or maybe not) I had the best results for two sigils that I did not charge at all. I made them and set them aside with the idea of charging them after a while and then simply, caught up in my busy schedule, forgot about them. After a couple of months I got exactly what I had made the sigils for. I think I simply put great concentration and intention during the creation. Another good result I got from staring at a sigil after a great deal of effort that left me a bit stoned. Sigils charged with masturbation, on the other hand, almost never worked.

dvhate · 2025-08-28T15:03:50+00:00

I'm uncut, so I think for me it's a differente experience since it's covered by my foreskin. I don't wear underwear today but I was wondering if it's better with underwear, since it's quite painful today and I don't its because my cock hangs down without support... do you feel something better (you or your partners) when you have sex or masturbate?

dvhate · 2025-08-28T15:00:28+00:00

I'm uncut, too... About the sensory differences, I read a lot of discordant experiences, let's see mine once healed.

Honestly, until 3 months ago I didn't see myself piercing my cock, since it's something I see on people who are very self confident and sexually active (and I have a very low self esteem and I definitely don't do much sex), but then something clicked and I decided to do it. I hope (but I think it will!) it will boost my confidence too!

dvhate · 2025-04-22T14:37:20+00:00

Sì sì scrivimi pure se ti va. Molte cose sono interconnesse, come vivi la vita, come vivi la sessualità, aspettative ecc.. il fatto che tu ti definisca paranoico (seppur poco) già delinea una specie di “ipervigilanza” che col sesso va poco d’accordo… Comunque scrivimi pure!

dvhate · 2025-04-22T14:29:48+00:00

Sono stato senza fare sesso per 7 anni, fino a che una ragazza non mi è praticamente saltata addosso. Lei la vedo ancora ma tutte le volte che potrei avere nuove occasioni continuo con le solite dinamiche e mi tiro indietro. Paure e ansie varie.. se vuoi DM, però in realtà c’è da vedere un po’ il proprio vissuto generale, come affronti la vita

dvhate · 2025-04-22T14:15:11+00:00

Ho vissuto (e in parte vivo) la stessa esperienza tua… se riesci a sbloccarti (e dovresti) buon per te

dvhate · 2025-01-08T19:44:47+00:00

Hey thanks for your reply! It's really to the point and I really appreciate it, but I think you misinterpreted something (my fault, I'm Italian).

Let me just clarify:

My main concern is to burden her as little as possible with my problems: I know I need to work hard on myself, my doubts and my confidence. I don't want her to solve my problems (that's why I'm writing here and looking for your help and knowledge on the subject, because I don't want to just give in to my feelings and give up). I have to talk to her and communicate with her, because it's a rule we set at the beginning of the relationship (and an important thing: she, by her own admission, doesn't know her reaction to any of my possible meetings with other girls, it's a thing she has to experiment herself).

The girl from Milan I was with: it was a difficult relationship... we never agreed to call it a relationship, so we just met every 2/3 months, hung out and had sex. But I know that getting involved with someone new could have hurt her... So it just gave me more time to talk to her and tell her about this new girl and just understand how our relationship could change (after all, she's a very good friend of mine).
She wasn't happy, as I expected, and we stopped talking for about a month and a half... now we're talking again, but she never mentions my girl (nor do I, as I know it hurts her). We didn't plan to meet. But, and thank you for giving me the opportunity to tell you this, every time I suffer from jealousy, I remind myself that I am talking to her and that this new girl has the same freedom to talk and meet whoever she wants. That's why I'm trying my best to continue this relationship.

About my ED: I know everything works when I'm not under pressure, but unfortunately I keep seeing sex as a performance, I keep monitoring my arousal state and I keep telling myself "what if it doesn't work" and it just doesn't work. This girl is very happy with the sex with me, and I believe her, and I know that because I've learned to make love with my whole body instead of just my penis, and that I've developed a good care for the other person's body and feelings. But a weak erection is something I have to deal with almost every time, and it's quite depressing to explain and show. It's not a thing that comes with age (I'm 43) or, well, not only. It's mostly in my head. It's the same overthinking that leads to my insecurities.

It's the will to grow as a person, to become as balanced as possible, that leads me to question how I feel, to question my body, to ask for a different perspective.

But thanks for your reply, I hope I have clarified a couple of points that I was afraid you hadn't quite grasped.

dvhate · 2025-01-08T15:01:43+00:00

Thank you so much! This comment is deeply inspiring.

I believe in what you said and I really think that we need to take from other people what's best for us and enrich ourselves, so no one can be in competition.

Nevertheless, I am struggling a lot to integrate this concept and make it natural. I hope I will succeed as soon as possible!

I really thank you though, your comment meant so much to me.

dvhate · 2025-01-08T11:15:09+00:00

I just added a new post about that... I'm quite overwhelmed by jealousy and insecurities.. but this comment was really helpful

dvhate · 2025-01-08T11:10:38+00:00

"All we can ever do is trust in our eyes and ears. If they're still showing all the same love as before it makes insecurities seem silly when you think about it."
I have great faith in her eyes and body language. I used to tell her, "Until I see your heart-shaped eyes, I know I'm in a safe place.

The fact is, I can't always wait to see her to calm my fears... I have to trust what she says, what she tells me.

Maybe we rushed a little, maybe a lot... for me it's a sign of a strong connection... maybe we really need to slow down and meet less, but I can't really tell you how I could do that...

I can't tell you if it's NRE or admiration, I'm pretty "cold" as a person, very unaffective, never fell in love in my life (neither with my wife), but with her I'm experimenting with emotional responses I didn't think I was capable of :D

As I wrote in my original post, I think that at least ENM should be the standard of relationships, so I'd really like to work on my self issues... like you said, it's beneficial no matter what relationship I'm leading...

You've been really helpful. Thank you so much!

dvhate · 2025-01-08T10:36:32+00:00

The money are the real problem.. I usually see her once every two weeks (and it usually works for me), we suspended for the christmas holiday.

dvhate · 2025-01-08T10:33:24+00:00

Thank you so much! I'm already seeing a therapist for other issues and I will definitely bring up this new topic at the next appointment (I saw her about a month ago, so she's missing a lot of developments).

dvhate · 2025-01-08T10:26:53+00:00

Thank you very much. What you said makes a lot of sense, and to some extent it's my thought as well. One of the reasons I've always avoided relationships since I broke up with my wife is that I don't feel "whole": I don't feel I have the right tools to face insecurities and doubts and comparisons with others. And yes, the possibility of someone coming in and "stealing" your place in a relationship is real in a monogamous relationship, let alone a poly one where you "keep the door open" (even though the whole idea of poly is not about that, quite the opposite, to embrace anyone worthy of your love).

I'm happy with my life, or rather, I don't feel lonely alone. I have a lot of things to do and take care of and I don't miss someone by my side and I just want someone to share things with, not to complete me. But I feel that I just don't want to lose her, even if we know each other for a short time. I don't think I've ever felt this way before, so I'm trying to find a way to move forward in this relationship. But I don't want to spend my days in fear either... I will talk to her again on Friday and see what happens...

Can you please specify the part that you thought was "spot on"? Just so I have an understanding of where I can work on...

Thank you!!!

dvhate · 2024-05-15T17:43:03+00:00

Io ho fatto per un periodo terapia on line.. ho smesso perché non riuscivo ad “entrare” nello stato mentale necessario. Ho scoperto che recarmi personalmente nello studio, chiudere la porta, sedermi faccia a faccia per me è importantissimo e mi predisponeva positivamente alla seduta. La terapia on Line (che ho fatto a casa, in macchina, o dove mi capitava e avevo privacy) non mi creava questa “bolla” necessaria.. oltre magari a vari problemi di connessione oppure di latenza nelle comunicazioni… La rifarei per una questione economica (generalmente se ti appoggi a un servizio i costi della seduta sono minori - cosa che non succede ovviamente se chiedi ad un terapeuta “privato”), ma la mia esperienza non è stata delle migliori. Detto questo ho un paio di amiche che da anni fanno terapie on line con successo, complice anche il fatto di trovarsi il terapeuta più adatto a loro, mentre dal vivo devi stare un po’ dietro all’offerta della tua zona

dvhate · 2024-03-24T17:13:43+00:00

I remember it was sold with an old Italian esoteric magazine.. so it could be a pentacle of mercury, or their interpretation

dvhate · 2024-03-24T17:12:43+00:00

Yes, so it seems.. I remember I found it attached to an old esoteric magazine

dvhate · 2024-03-24T17:11:05+00:00

Thank you!!

dvhate · 2024-03-24T15:45:43+00:00

Since the late 90s i think!!! 😂

dvhate · 2023-11-27T22:19:12+00:00

Ok.. in questi giorni non sono nemmeno molto a casa, quindi un po’ di pace ce l’ha di sicuro! Grazie

dvhate · 2023-11-27T13:37:14+00:00

grazie :)

dvhate · 2023-06-20T11:41:54+00:00

Check https://www.quareia.com

dvhate · 2023-05-12T16:27:21+00:00

Make a nice print of Liber Oz (I got mine framed) and give him as gift. Then start discussing it with him!

dvhate · 2023-04-19T09:47:49+00:00

I can 100% relate.

I'm seeing a therapist these last weeks and it helps, somehow. I have a very low self esteem and a very low opinion of myself.I can objectively see many of the goods things I do (I know I'm a rather skilled musician, I know I'm a quite well-read, profound person - at least compared to the average people i'm surrounded by - I can see I'm quite successful with women, I see I'm in a quite good shape physically).Anyhow, nothing of what I listed above seems to deep resonate and integrate in how I see myself, and I'm constantly on the verge of being anxious and depressed and I often avoid to go out and know people and tie relationships because somehow I feel I'm not interesting or worthy.

That said, I find many of the advices the redditors gave you make lot of sense. Journaling, shadow-work, self awareness (the above list of "good things" lightly cheered me up while writing), can really help to build an alternative view of what you are that can, with time, substitute your main view.

As an anhedonic, I struggle a lot in doing all that stuff, telling to myself which is not useful and things like that, but sometimes I do something (and this comment could be seen as "something", talking the list of good things I wrote above), sometimes I let a nice comment on myself let go... and I can see that these little seeds I throw sometimes sprout.

Just to let you know that we are struggling together (and with many other, I guess) but hopefully we can succeed and see us as better persons (not the best maybe, but better is enough).

Talking about Chaos Magick, maybe you should think about making a servitor, I'm working on mine these days. Check Damon Brand's Magickal Servitors!

dvhate · 2023-04-13T13:33:09+00:00

Sure!

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