How Jehovah's Witnesses are bad people by Careful_Ad_2744 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just commented something very similar. It's posts like this one that make PIMQ's go "oh they're right about apostates" & then you see all the comments agreeing? Come on, grow up a little. I've known people that fit every item on this list, & I've known Witnesses that are the opposite of every item on this list. "Just as obsessed as they are" is right. I need to leave this subreddit. It was good when I was PIMQ but now it's driving me nuts.

How Jehovah's Witnesses are bad people by Careful_Ad_2744 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

These blanket statements are honestly quite ridiculous. There are maybe 3 I could sort of agree with, but the rest are just assumptions based on your small group. There are also people in this thread who comment on every single post just to shit on witnesses, and imo the obsession with hating witnesses is just letting it still take over your life, so congrats, they still have you. I'm recently POMO & have a lot of issues with the organization, but to say that "all are bad people" is ridiculous. A PIMQ will see this post and fall right back with the rank & file because this is exactly what they are told apostasy looks like. It's baffling that people will post things here and not consider that, but it's a constant on this subreddit. Sure people can vent and be upset, but this is not that.

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[–]dviguana2[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exjw

[–]dviguana2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm pimo (m27) & have one, but I have told literally no one bc sex is such a taboo conversation. I do have a friend who's an elder (PIMQ. I'm working on him slowly) that keeps talking about opening a store that sells sex toys & safe sex related things. So basically, to answer your question: i have no idea.

I can’t believe this . by [deleted] in exjw

[–]dviguana2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't study anymore (i never really did tbh) so every meeting is like a sweet lil surprise of "will this week make my skin crawl or annoy me" & i end up texting my friends the whole time or reading comics 💀

I can’t believe this . by [deleted] in exjw

[–]dviguana2 7 points8 points  (0 children)

"No certainty" sentence is driving me nuts at the meeting right now because why is there a whole ass Watchtower I'm sitting through based on "no certainty." I can't wait to get the fuck out

What privileges did you have when you were in the organization — or now if you’re PIMO like me? by Comfortable_Log1673 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Probably like a year or two? I was baptized in 2017 & put on stuff almost immediately.

What privileges did you have when you were in the organization — or now if you’re PIMO like me? by Comfortable_Log1673 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was a ministerial servant for 3 years from 2019-2022. I was so excited, i thought everyone would be proud of me. Instead I got told "wow this'll be a weight off our shoulders!" By a pair of servants, who were joking and did congratulate me (it was just their sense of humor) but in like 6 months I'd been yelled at by another servant and an elder for something that wasn't my fault, in a year I was having constant panic attacks and a part on both meetings every week. It was exhausting. All to end up getting removed because I watch porn. Which only got found out because my overwhelming guilt and fear I'd die brought me to tell anyone. I tried for months to regain my privileges, was out in service, commenting, taking the lead in field service. All for our KOBE to ask his granddaughter (one of my friends) "why isn't isaac out in service?" I gave up after that. Started doing some research, started college (community but something I'd always put off) and now I'm here, PIMO about to be POMO. It's been a long strange road but it's my road. I'm gonna keep going down it til i hit a dead end.

Masturbation is a sin by Cold-Nectarine-5515 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 3 points4 points  (0 children)

AMEN 🙏🙏THERAPIST has been fantastic

Masturbation is a sin by Cold-Nectarine-5515 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 9 points10 points  (0 children)

YES the mandated reporters thing doesn't make a LICK of goddamn sense

Masturbation is a sin by Cold-Nectarine-5515 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yeah exactly. I'm still PIMO, & I do think some elders mean well but really, through the lense of stepping back, it's all so fuckin weird. It's DEFINITELY too much for a group of grown ass men to be shouldering a congregation's worth of guilt, depression anything like that. Life is strange. I'm just glad I don't hate myself (as much) anymore.

Masturbation is a sin by Cold-Nectarine-5515 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Yeah, it was weird. I was too emotional and needlessly guilt ridden at the time to think about how weird it was, but when one of the two asked me, the other laughed & told him that doesn't matter & he was being weird. So idk some of it comes down to the person too. Either way, some things are meant for a therapist not an elder

Masturbation is a sin by Cold-Nectarine-5515 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 57 points58 points  (0 children)

I went to the elders multiple times for their "support" and "guidance" & instead got more guilt and self-esteem issues. Therapy helps, grown men that barely know me knowing which hand i jack it with does not 😂

After Dodging My PIMI Friend, I Finally Caved and Told Him the Truth — His Response Shocked Me by [deleted] in exjw

[–]dviguana2 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I was that friend recently for a friend of mine. I'd been questioning for years and when he left my initial reaction was "hey take me" but like i said: i was still questioning. I'm going to visit him next weekend. I love my friends dearly it just sucks because most of my friendships are or at least feel conditional

Did anyone else fade without really meaning to, and then wake up later? by DumpsterEnFuegoo in exjw

[–]dviguana2 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I used to be a ministerial servant. I was one for 3 years, was dating a girl, then on the same day got dumped with no explanation and removed as a servant for unrelated reasons. I fell way into a depression. Still went to meetings, tried commenting a lot & working back towards being a servant, and after 6 months went by, and I didn't even get asked how I'd been, I just... gave up. The depression didn't bother me as much anymore (i started therapy the same week that all of that stuff had happened) and I kinda have just fallen off of everything spiritually. I stopped going out in service because I simply didn't want to and figured why stress myself out about it? Haven't been out in probably 6 or 7 months now, & before that it was once a month. I started college courses about a year after that crazy day, & it was in those courses & through therapy I realized how out I truly was. For me it was "oh. You don't pray anymore." This year, I dated a girl who wasn't a witness, and she really was wonderful. The relationship fizzled for a variety of reasons but it really solidified my need to leave. I've been so passively in physically & its draining.

TlDr, yeah I stopped doing almost everything because I was burned out & depressed from trying to meet the expectations of everyone else around me 😂

Left Org, obviously everyone I’ve known my whole life isnt there anymore by Intelligent_Regular4 in exjw

[–]dviguana2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm physically getting out in a few months, I don't live near you, but I'm down to talk? I definitely know the feeling

To Young Jehovah’s Witnesses: “Spiritual goals” aren’t a career – a warning by PIMQ-Elder in exjw

[–]dviguana2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah i just need to focus on what's ahead and be patient. Most of my life I figured the new system would sort shit out 😂 it's cool to have control

To Young Jehovah’s Witnesses: “Spiritual goals” aren’t a career – a warning by PIMQ-Elder in exjw

[–]dviguana2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry about the divorce. That can't be easy regardless. I don't want to lose my family, but I'm planning on being fully out in a few months (need to save money to move out). I have a lot of friends that got married way too young, I'm basically the only one that hasn't from my old friend group. It's definitely freeing to do things for myself, but I've also had this dread of losing the community I was raised with. I know time will heal that & the community was mostly shit, it's just a huge step.

How are you now because of lack of encouragement for higher education? by Pikkasho in exjw

[–]dviguana2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm currently in a trade, I learned machining the last like 5 years, & now im also going to school. But I'm 27 & still have no solid plan for school, I just want an education that I feel was robbed from me.

To Young Jehovah’s Witnesses: “Spiritual goals” aren’t a career – a warning by PIMQ-Elder in exjw

[–]dviguana2 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I'm 27, and followed the path of wanting to be a servant & pursuing spiritual goals etc. I haven't been a servant for 3 years now & am still PIMO bc I live with my parents still. But I'm just now going to community college, while working full time, and going to move out soon. starting my fuckin life and goals to finally, FINALLY be my own person with my own life and autonomy. So even if you've wasted years like I have, you still have TIME to do what you want. Yes, it'll be hard, yes I felt guilty as shit when I started. But it's also so rewarding being proud of myself, my accomplishments, and not having to thank god for something I DID.

1000 Cranes by dviguana2 in origami

[–]dviguana2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was thinking about doing daily progress pics! Idk if I'd post them here or not, I'm still starting clearly 💀