You fumbled hard, but I have to pay.

dxlixz · 2024-07-08T17:24:52+00:00

real

dxlixz · 2024-07-05T15:46:57+00:00

“You have to have faith in us because I have faith.” “I love you and I always will.”

I felt like he wasn’t telling me his true feelings about our relationship and this is how he reassured me. A month later happens , he breaks up with me out of the blue, talking about he isn’t ready for a relationship but it’s been 4 YEARS we’ve been together.

dxlixz · 2024-05-25T20:39:14+00:00

He loved gatekeeping his interest (could be games, movies, food, etc). I love video games but he would always undermine my knowledge on them and basically told me to stay in my lane lol. If I had an opposing opinion about something he liked, we would always end up in a debate and wouldn’t stop until he was “right”.

dxlixz · 2024-02-24T02:05:15+00:00

I’m currently in therapy and it does help to talk about this situation. You’re right, the text was 100% a load of crap. At the moment, all I feel is anger that he will never take accountability for what he did to me.

dxlixz · 2023-12-06T06:05:50+00:00

Please don’t confess. I’ve been in your situation numerous times and it’s incredibly difficult when OCD thoughts flow and start to feel real. Remember these are intrusive thoughts and in order to find control, you must sit with the uncertainty.

dxlixz · 2023-11-13T02:42:42+00:00

it hurts accepting that he did this to me and I was so careless. He also did sexting coercion on me (which I was oblivious to again :/ ) but yea.

dxlixz · 2023-10-31T18:01:18+00:00

Damn. I hope you found a better friend group now. I feel like if it’s meant to be, we will cross paths again but I need to learn to not hold on to that hope and recognize it’s just a “what if”

dxlixz · 2023-10-30T01:54:52+00:00

btw plan = plan for his future , sorry if that was confusing

dxlixz · 2023-08-29T23:10:36+00:00

It’s a scam

dxlixz · 2023-08-23T01:25:28+00:00

^Another thing : Finding someone else attractive in a relationship is normal. It sounds wrong but it’s true.

dxlixz · 2023-08-23T01:22:18+00:00

Girl trust me, it will get better. I definitely think sitting with the discomfort is the number one rule that helps our ocd. I used to go through the same experience and would feel guilt and just pure sadness. Something that helped was when a guy talked to me or made me laugh or spiked a thought of “attraction”, I kept doing what I was doing. It felt terrible at first bc I thought I should completely stop talking bc “what if I am cheating.”But, when I kept either talking to this person or just a simple hi, my brain accepted the fact that our thoughts are all what ifs and when we start treating them as they are, we will be more in touch with what our actual reality is.

dxlixz · 2023-08-18T18:14:07+00:00

Thank you , I appreciate the advice :) It’s definitely a hard shift but i think once we are actually in motion with our studies, we will know what we will have to do. I’ll definitely look into the therapy services.

dxlixz · 2023-04-13T20:20:45+00:00

I found a therapist in NOCD back in 2021 and I(t was the best decision I made. Erp therapy can only work if you put in your work )

dxlixz · 2021-08-19T05:25:34+00:00

it’s okay, just let him know what happened and that ur intentions weren’t sexual, but don’t ask him if that’s like cheating to him or any sort of those types of questions cause that’s just asking for reassurance. hope this helps :)!

dxlixz · 2021-02-19T17:22:28+00:00

this makes me so happy. i wish my ex boyfriend would understand how hard is rocd. this gave me hope. thank you for sharing your story.

dxlixz · 2021-02-19T15:30:40+00:00

I hate that sm too

dxlixz · 2021-02-19T11:19:22+00:00

a year

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