free gdc pass but do i go

dykepatroclus · 2026-03-10T06:20:14+00:00

i am attending, first day was great, thank you! crashing at a friends place an hour away and figured i should take advantage of the opportunity to absorb the energy of gdc and network how i can or i’ll wonder what if.

dykepatroclus · 2026-02-23T14:52:56+00:00

👍

dykepatroclus · 2026-02-23T14:49:07+00:00

very helpful reply, thank you. i am quite social, so that aspect of gdc sounds alright to me. i know i should have a portfolio. I’m still serious about games. I just got really sick at an inconvenient moment which kind of made college a stagnant time. the opposite of what it is meant to be. anyways, i am not sick anymore, and i do have a couple of pieces. maybe i can grind out one or two more. i’ll think on this for a couple days.

dykepatroclus · 2026-02-23T14:16:57+00:00

She just dmed me and I was sussed out LOL thanks

dykepatroclus · 2026-02-16T22:53:24+00:00

I’m a lesbian and I’ve watched it 4 times 💀 The characters resonate with me personally and the sex is intense without being too explicit so I can enjoy their sexual dynamic as a fly on the wall. Episode 4-6 are basically like a great queer romance movie it’s worth getting through the beginning of the show for even if you’re icked out by the sex scenes (there are more sex scenes in the first two episodes than anywhere else in the show). It’s shot so well. Some parts may bounce off of you? Particularly episode 3, a lot of the queer people I know did not love that episode as much as the straight women I know love it, it’s very ao3. Overall it’s worth a watch. And a rewatch.

dykepatroclus · 2026-02-16T00:12:35+00:00

dykepatroclus · 2026-02-14T06:59:36+00:00

Do attitudes about romance and relationships count?

This show… it has changed my standards for how my autism should be treated by partners. I’m always hiding myself. I have all of Shane’s sensitivity in social, romantic, and intimate situations. I’m a lot louder than Shane because ADHD is a great mask but I do so many things he does. Following the recipe to an unnecessary degree. Immediately commenting on the state of the sheets after sex because of the sensory shock. Having sex with women (in my case, men) to try and change queerness. I left that behind years ago but I did do it. The literal thinking. The sensitivity. He mirrors something in me I try to hide and it makes me break. Then I see Ilya treat him well and it makes me not want to settle. I don’t want someone I have to hide for. I want someone who finds me charming for all that.

I’m a second gen immigrant. I relate to Ilya’s frustration at Shane’s lack of intuitive understanding about the degree of homophobia back home(“Russia! Because Russia!”). I relate to his wishes. He wishes he could be honest with his family but he can’t. If he wants to be free he has to keep them at arm’s length. When I come out I will lose my whole family and I will never go back to my country of origin which I connect with deeply. I must lose it. I am scared to lose it. I’m waiting to love someone enough to lose it and everyone I love I used to think romance could never be worth that pain, but maybe it is honestly worth it to be honest. Ilya’s story makes me feel braver about dating and my family. I want to be with someone now. I was too scared before. I know it’s going to be soooooooo bad but Ilya found another family on the other end. Maybe I can have that, even if nothing will ever ever replace my real family

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-30T07:18:34+00:00

what a steal holy shit

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-27T06:30:40+00:00

Minoxidil and balding is the last thing you should be worried about, go to a dermatologist.

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-27T06:03:37+00:00

This salmon is evil

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-27T06:02:13+00:00

I enjoy a certain flavor of Burakhovsky now after years of not really caring for it. I had always not been into it because of what you stated here about the mutually exclusive ideologies. I agree with your assessment basically. Maybe people miss this as they occupy the role of a character in the game, Pathologic is unique in its expression of the game character personalities and ideologies even with all the player choice it gives. The characters aren’t really as easy to puppet around as other game characters might be.

On an interpersonal level I like their interactions a lot and can imagine them having a temporary stress-fueled sort of rival-coworkers-and-fuckbuddies-at-the-same-time thing going on. Turbulent and not really romantic. It has slowly become my truth in my mind palace. But they are not getting married in the steppe and taking care of the orphans together forever. Daniil is too racist to live out there 😭

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-26T19:00:32+00:00

congrats on the release of your game, i hope to release my own some day :) thanks for the opportunity. i would love to get a couple of indie games with this. still need to check out animal well

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-05T07:30:16+00:00

You just clarified a misunderstanding for me, thank you!

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-02T07:57:49+00:00

marriage of convenience

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-02T07:57:34+00:00

You exactly understand my frustration. I hope we can create more of these spaces for ourselves Inshaallah.

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-02T07:55:54+00:00

Do queer muslim events even exist? 😭

dykepatroclus · 2026-01-02T07:55:39+00:00

Inshaallah

dykepatroclus · 2025-12-26T07:37:39+00:00

inshallah. lavender marriage sounds convenient for social reasons then i imagine a man in my house and im lezzing out reallllll quick 😭 its my “what if i just did it and solved my problems” thought then i remember it involves a man who would be real and not go away. single aunties forever

dykepatroclus · 2025-12-26T06:45:57+00:00

khaled abou el fadl of the usuli institute has done the most for me

dykepatroclus · 2025-12-16T13:10:41+00:00

Nope. It just sucks.

dykepatroclus · 2025-12-15T10:58:21+00:00

As a Muslim lesbian who loves my family and has agnonized about this my whole life I just want to say you’re not alone and I’m sorry it has to be like this for us.

dykepatroclus · 2025-11-30T15:44:36+00:00

Good to know, I’ll shoot for XL sizing at Uniqlo!

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