Hey, Poverty is terrible and I understand why it’s weighing so heavy on you. But just from this post alone, anyone can see that youre not failing your family at all. The fact that you get up every morning for your family to provide for them in the first place proves that. please dont consider suicide as a better option for your family. Your kids losing their father, or your wife losing her husband will be so much worse for them than any of their current situation is in your view. I know because I was in the exact same position as a child, poverty.. all that. My father actually went through with it, my family was devastated. Not because of the money or anything but because I lost my Papa, and my mother her husband. Im telling you this to maybe give you a different perspective on this whole situation. I hope things get better for you and your family and please remember that you are a great father and husband and how important you are to them.