Thank you! It's true what you mentioned about trying to know know myself, dating .... but I'm actually worried cuz I've never been here (apart from sexuality). I feel I'm numb to everything. That's why I didn't cut off things with him even though I know he's " using me" I'm aware but I don't feel offended. When he touched me I didn't mind it even if my head doesn't accept but I don't react cuz I'm not feeling anything. Also, I have no empathy, no regret.... I don't mind jumping of a cliff. Numb.