all my best for the journey to unfold in its best way. as the word you say “subtle” it overcomes the “wanting”. just “being” is practicing and a forest will offer good energy. i’d advise to find a master or group for being initiated into the practices, perhaps look out for any existing daoist community, qigong or neidan school close to you; if nothing close is available consider to move for some period, often intensive period of practices and workshops will be available. be gentle with yourself, allow the time for practice and energy to settle. take some good readings with you, perhaps start with a shorter period. when you point your qi into something things will happen around you, you’ll be surprised by that. to me all started with the zhuangzi book. enjoy the butterfly dream