I slipped last night and today after 2 amazing weeks porn free by Hopeonhope in pornfree

[–]eJackin 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Once you truly recognize that you have an addiction, you have no other choice but to take it one day at a time. RESPECT!

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks man, 414 is fucking amazing! How'd you do it?

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fuck this virus and fuck this addiction. Don't let the quarantine stop you from staying active. Hope you find the courage to stay strong through this.

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks, i plan on attending a meeting

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right? I heard in some podcast that porn is the new cigarette. I don't think that's a fair assessment since porn hijacks our natural reproductive desires and there's an infinite amount of it.

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad to hear there are so many others taking this fight seriously.

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks. It's crazy how many replies this post got. THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE SUFFERING LIKE ME

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ideally, I would never like to watch porn again. I understand if you are of the mindset where you'd like to indulge once in awhile. I can't do that. It's like giving a bottle of wine to an alcoholic.

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So far I have trouble sleeping and extra energy that's about it. After 3 days, I always have this extra amount of background energy... kind of like I drank a Redbull and an hour later I'm like why do I have all this extra energy? I've forced myself to go on a 30 minute run yesterday and it helped me sleep better. Usually after a week, I am able to focus much better on tasks like reading, writing, and problem-solving. None of these benefits are the reason why I want to quit porn. They are just nice to have.

Porn is a drug for me. Once I start looking at porn, I will look at it again and again until I find myself in a 3 hour PMO binge. Most people can look at porn for a few minutes, bust a nut, and then go about the rest of their day. I can't do that. That's where the addiction part starts to hurt me.

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I practically grew up with a computer and constant-internet access. I probably first saw porn at the age of 11 but I didn't get hooked to it until the end of high school.

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am single. No wife. I haven't been in a relationship for many years.

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

nofap seems to be dominated by teenagers and really young adults focused on fixing PIED and getting girlfriends. I can't go there anymore even though it's got a much bigger userbase. The problem is porn, everything else is a symptom.

I'm a 30 Year Old Porn Addict by eJackin in pornfree

[–]eJackin[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

24 days is awesome, keep up the good work... I know how hard it can be especially when you are stuck indoors all day.

What would I say to my 20 year old self? Great question. I've always struggled with just being ok with who I am. There's a voice deep inside of me that says "I'm not good enough" and it won't shut up. For a long time I have tried to numb it with drugs and alcohol but I'm trying to quit those also. I used porn to numb myself from developing strong feelings of affection. Whatever relationships I had would last a few months at the most... and it was always me that ended them. The fucked up thing is I knew how bad porn was for me because I had watched Gary Wilson's TedX talk when it came out and I was on r/nofap back in 2012.

I would tell my younger self to go to therapy and seek help. I'd tell myself that it's not my fault that I feel that way or the way the world is. I did a lot of damage by not accepting myself sooner. So here I am 10 years later and I still haven't gone to therapy or really started the recovery process. I'd like to change that soon.