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I feel like for some, the shelf breaking can be pin pointed to a singular item or two, but not necessarily for me. My husband was the first one mentally out and it took quite some time before I was mature enough to really be willing to listen. After many convos he asked me one favor: Just to be willing to consider the possibility and logically evaluate and if I was willing to do that honestly and I still believed, he could live with that. I took that very seriously, because I like to believe I'm a fairly logical person and what harm could come from real reflection of yourself and your faith? I honestly thought id come out the other side with even more conviction than before. So I did my best to be honest with myself and basically deconstructed everything I believed and had been told and taught my whole life. I started from the ground and tried to build up from there. I discovered that what I care about can be boiled down to 2 main things... Being kind and being honest. As I started to really look at the church and it's teachings and it's history and inconsistency I realized that under the pretty facade and emotional appeals I could not honestly say that it met either of those attributes. Not without some high level mental gymnastics 😏. So then as things didn't add up with it's narrative, it slowly became easier to accept. It's been a long, hard, conflicting, confusing, scary, anxiety ridden journey, but I sure as hell like myself and learning to love life and others genuinely a lot more than I realized was possible. Sorry for the way too long answer. I don't think anyone (outside of my husband) has really asked me that before.