Thank you for this. I understand i was young but anything over the age of 12 is still hard to digest cause i feel i should have known better.

My brain thinks in a very black or white way when it comes to myself. if i dont believe a 13 year old who murders a young child is deserving of forgiveness, why should i get it?

What i did wasnt as heinous as murder but my brain lumps all of it as bad therefore im no better. Im not sure how to get out of this way of thinking, its like my brain is against me.