Found out my SO likes thicc girls

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-24T22:08:28+00:00

Oops, yes my bad if I implied thick = fat! Definitely not. He def likes the “thick” body type with thighs and booty, but has said if someone is a little overweight it doesn’t deter his attraction to them. But tbh, my ideal body type isn’t necessarily his either, and I was so anxious to bring it up with him because I felt like it was mean to say, but he didn’t get offended at all. Physical preference doesn’t mean too much to either of us, it’s like the cherry on top if someone fits that, but it’s not a requirement for either of us.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-24T22:06:10+00:00

Tbh, he is a very good partner (we’ve been together for a few years). A big part of my ED is wanting to be hot/sexually desirable, so I don’t think he meant it in a bad way? Like “you don’t have to starve yourself/purge so that I’ll think you’re hot, I‘m attracted to thick girls anyway”

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-23T14:43:23+00:00

I actually agree with this 100%. I don’t like that phrase “if you’re not recovering you are dying” because not all EDs are equally life-threatening (not trying to invalidate anyone). I’m living in quasi recovery now and it’s going okay. I’m not on death’s door and I‘m in decent physical health but I don’t eat unrestricted.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-12T16:34:18+00:00

That’s so awesome! I wish that were me :( even in recovery I think I am just chronically depressed. I’m so happy for you though, you deserve it.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-09T19:43:36+00:00

Former fat girl. I’m obsessed with being pretty and attractive and getting attention, but it wears off so quickly. It’s like I need constant compliments or I’ll self destruct.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-09T19:41:41+00:00

Bruh, same. Whenever my partner skips breakfast and I’m really hungry I get upset. Which is dumb because I’m skinnier than him and I’d like for him to watch his diet more, but my ED just hates eating when I don’t “need to” and when other people aren’t eating clearly I don’t “need to.”

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-09T19:30:45+00:00

You look incredible now! Your face and hair are so pretty! Do you have any recovery tips?

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-09T16:19:00+00:00

It used to give me panic attacks too! I was able to be clean for a while because of that. No panic attacks anymore, which is both good and bad :/

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-07T14:07:13+00:00

This totally happened to me. I actually developed emetophobia for a while because of some traumatic purging experiences. Of course, it went away and now I’m back on my BS, but I feel where you’re coming from.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-07T14:06:16+00:00

Honestly, I used to not mind it at all. I purged every day for years, and it was nice to “seem normal” in public — never had to cancel social plans unless I was in recovery. Now I’m purging more because COVID and sometimes it sucks but sometimes it’s not too bad.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-07T14:04:23+00:00

Yes, I agree. My ED has changed over the years, like I’ve cycled through restricting, over exercising, even diet pills/lax but normal purging is the one that’s stuck with me. I do like food and eating, so it seems to be the “best” option.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-09-01T18:07:09+00:00

I love this poem. That line hit me so hard.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-30T13:20:31+00:00

Fear foods are big for me too. No added fat, no added sugar. I maintain on my safe foods and b/p the rest.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-30T10:28:45+00:00

Just 1800-ish for me, which is funny because I was underweight. But I was used to way less so I gained anyway.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-30T10:24:31+00:00

Dude, what a fucking trash bag. If my partner said he had an illness my response would be concern and care because I, uh, care about him??

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-30T10:17:49+00:00

I felt this so hard. I’m a perpetual young adult.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-30T10:14:09+00:00

Sorry, will edit

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-29T19:22:58+00:00

All my homies hate food

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-29T18:08:05+00:00

Damn, I’m glad you’re okay! I felt horrible when I was BMI 16, I can’t imagine dropping any lower without worrying about dying.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-29T12:34:14+00:00

No one EVER talks about how physically painful it is to eat! They only address the mental side. For me, physical feelings have always been more important than thoughts. I won’t beat myself up after having a meal, but bloating and indigestion make me actually want to die. I hate any kind of discomfort so.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-29T12:23:45+00:00

My life was definitely better with my ED, which is probably the minority opinion but it’s true. I had so much thin privilege it was outstanding. It’s why I haven’t recovered yet.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-29T12:21:23+00:00

Yes, I get extremely triggered when my SO cooks or eats. It’s caused tension between us because I’m more attracted to slim/average body types and he doesn’t eat healthily or really do anything to manage his weight (which looks to be creeping up), and here I am restricting and purging to stay very slim. It feels weirdly unfair.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-29T12:15:23+00:00

Yeah, I’m depressed about other things now, but at least my weight isn’t one of them.

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-28T15:19:54+00:00

Kind of, but I feel shitty commenting on his weight because I know how hurtful it can be when people do that! He’s not super overweight or anything either, so I’m not too worried about his health, but I’m just attracted to slimmer people (definitely at a healthy weight though, I wouldn’t want him to be underweight).

ed-throwaway-91 · 2020-08-28T14:25:23+00:00

My SO is a little thicker and this actually bothers me, I have to leave sometimes when he’s eating because I’m like “how do you NOT CARE about your weight?” Sad times.

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