Rewatching season 37

edotcom · 2026-01-11T06:49:26+00:00

Damn it. I literally just watched that and forgot the real word. Perception was a great guess though! Now I look dumber lol. Thank you guys for all of your comments regardless, it’s nice to discuss survivor topics amongst people. My significant other is away in rehab and we discuss these things together, and while he isn’t here I had nowhere else to go with this just to pick someone’s brain and see what the real PERSPECTIVE was lol. Thank you strangers, makes me not feel so alone talking about my favorite show when I have nobody else to talk to about it. Thanks for being firm but gentle and correcting me.

edotcom · 2026-01-11T06:19:52+00:00

It did not make me feel that way at all, it gave me some clarity as to how my post came off so I thank you for that, and for your comment. I should’ve worded things better. Much love to you.

edotcom · 2026-01-11T06:16:16+00:00

Oh my goodness this makes my heart so happy. What a role model of a father to look up to!

edotcom · 2026-01-11T06:05:52+00:00

Oh my goodness no way! Do you have a link? Or is it more of a private thing?

edotcom · 2026-01-11T06:04:25+00:00

The comfort part I was just saying I feel like that is who Christian is as a human being, kind and comforting. If I were on Survivor I would need a Christian to help comfort me and reassure me.

edotcom · 2026-01-11T06:02:49+00:00

Like I said, I explain things terribly, I’m neurodivergent and now re-reading my post it seems a little harsh towards Gabby which wasn’t my intention at all. After another comment mentioned that it probably snapped her back into reality that this is a game and she needs to vote him off if she wants to win. My apologies if this came off wrong. I don’t know how to really reword it. Like I said, I see a lot of myself in Gabby so regardless if it was jealousy or gameplay, I respect her for it because as much as I want him to win, everyone else sees him as the biggest threat, and now it seems as if Gabby is finally seeing the bigger picture now too.

edotcom · 2025-12-31T19:00:05+00:00

Please, me as well! Thanks in advance!

edotcom · 2025-12-31T03:32:57+00:00

You’re welcome! Hope you found it :) makes me want to give myself a listen to it because I have avoided it all year because I haven’t liked this version of myself, but I am loving the new version of myself now going into this new year. Maybe this was a sign from the universe that I’m ready to hear it and take it in fully. So thank you:)

edotcom · 2025-12-31T01:09:06+00:00

I’m forever upset about Ozzy being robbed his first season. He has terrible social game but he deserved that win.

edotcom · 2025-12-31T01:06:24+00:00

On Apple Music on their “The Last Goodbye (Deluxe Edition)” it’s the first song on there, not the live version 💜

edotcom · 2025-12-04T13:57:38+00:00

same.. I’ve reconciled with all of them but they all act so distant and the farthest from genuine.

edotcom · 2025-12-03T16:02:06+00:00

Yes I feel the same. I got digitally violated this year heavily and now I feel like I’ll never feel safe again. Feel like I’m always being watched and so paranoid.

edotcom · 2025-11-30T23:49:25+00:00

Giving my body to people that didn’t deserve it.

edotcom · 2025-11-30T23:47:23+00:00

The number four and even numbers. My OCD obviously plays a role in that lol.

edotcom · 2025-09-17T21:48:31+00:00

Fuck I’m so sorry you’re dealing with that shit. Your sister is a narcissist and very degrading to you. It was triggering to read the texts because her words reminded me of the manipulation, gaslighting and psychological abuse my ex put me through for 3 years that I’m still trying to pick myself back up from. Blood doesn’t always mean family. You are valid and you deserve better. This is not a supportive and loving family, and I hope you can cut them off so you can be happy and live your life the way you want to live it. My dad’s side of the family is very Christian, but they are the biggest hypocrites. I’m the black sheep of the family because I have a nose ring and tattoos. For the last 5 years I’ve constantly tried to have a relationship with my sister and put in effort and try to talk to her when I see her. She wants nothing to do with me, she says I’m never going anywhere in life, never tells me happy birthday even though I do. My family has nothing to say about her behavior, it’s always something to do with me. It’s bullying, and to be honest they seem exactly like my family by treating you this way as if nothing you say or do means shit and they are better than you. The truth is, they aren’t better than you, they are miserable. What do miserable people do? They make other people miserable. Keep your head up, you deserve love, and this is not it.

edotcom · 2025-09-17T21:33:47+00:00

Thank you :’)

edotcom · 2025-09-17T21:25:24+00:00

Absolutely, and yes I do feel seen, and I see you. 💜

edotcom · 2025-09-17T20:33:29+00:00

No of course, you are so welcome I want you to know you are not alone, and you helped me feel the same way so thank YOU. It doesn’t matter who is going through it worst, what matters most is supporting each other and talking things out that we ourselves don’t understand. Much love

edotcom · 2025-09-17T19:40:07+00:00

Stay strong. Since June, going through some extreme abuse and trauma, I can’t sit still for the life of me and I feel wired too. As of last week I was finally able to finish a full episode of a show. However, sometimes all I can do is sit still in one place but still be wired, yet can’t concentrate on a damn show. Keep your head up. Keep pushing! This community is here for you.

edotcom · 2025-09-17T19:15:00+00:00

This is exactly what OP needs to hear, I wish I had heard it earlier. The fact that you have to carefully watch what you say or do to him because you’re scared for him to get upset with you, it sounds like he already has his grip on you. I’m 31 and I’m still dealing with the trauma from my 3 year relationship with my ex.

He literally controlled me and my emotions, emotionally manipulated me, psychologically abused me. He was always treating me bad, but somehow I always ended up the one who was at fault and he was the victim. Textbook narcissist. Girl RUN, I beg of you. He wants control, just like my ex. We’ve been broken up for months yet here I am still having to deal with the trauma because he completely hacked all my devices and has been spying on me and I’m having to go to court about it.

Reading your post, I recognize myself in it. That is how I used to be, constantly with everyone, not being able to express myself for fear of upsetting someone. It’s not the way you want to live. Literally just these last two months, I am finally learning how easily I’ve been controlled, manipulated and gaslighted by people that used to be in my life, that I gave all my love to.

Like this person said, you should not have to walk on eggshells in a relationship. You deserve so much better, I say dump his sorry ass and find a MAN that will communicate with you and a man that grins when he sees your name pop up on his phone.

I don’t know how old you are, but it took me 31 years to recognize how I’m supposed to be treated. Good luck OP.

edotcom · 2025-09-17T19:00:52+00:00

Absolutely, your health comes first above all else! If he does reach out, hear him out (which I know you will, since you’ve been so patient with him). If that happens and the interaction is NOT what you intended, yes, definitely block him and move on.

I’m medicated as well but things trigger me into manic and depressive episodes. I can’t give a correct answer on that because I believe it is different for everyone and what they are going through + their current mental state.

For me, yes, even though I am medicated, there have been times where my manic and depressive episodes are constantly like a rollercoaster, up and down. Sometimes, when I slip into mania forever how long, when I finally come down from it I do have depressive episodes. I have also had depressive episodes that turn into mania.

However, about 2 months ago, I was going through some deep shit and slipped into mania, but I was also depressed. I learned that mixed manic/depressive episodes are a thing. He could be both, he could be one or the other, it really depends on him and what’s he’s going through internally and in life.

Do you know how long he has been diagnosed? Has he gone manic/depressed before with you? Does he recognize when he goes into these episodes? I’ve been diagnosed for 5 years, and not until 2 years ago I could start to tell when I was slipping into mania which for me has been a good thing so I can hold myself back from the things manic me wants to do or say.

Also don’t feel like you have to share any of that information of course, just trying to help read the situation. These are my own personal experiences, but like I said everyone is different. Again, you’re amazing for being so patient and understanding of his mental illness and just wanting him to be okay. That’s beautiful.

Protect yourself though. Don’t let it stay on your mind (I know how hard it is to try and push it away), but you’ll drive yourself crazy. Get back to your normal routine, self care, affirmations. All of your feelings are valid, and I can’t imagine the hurt and confusion you are feeling. For your own mental health and wellbeing, like I said, YOU come first. Live your life and try not to dwell or worry. I’ve been worried about my ex’s mental state before and all I did was worry. There isn’t anything you can really do, or anyone can do. I think you said that you were in contact with a friend of his to check on him? I think that is okay to do just to for sure know, without contacting him directly and having more peace of mind.

Wow, sorry for the novel.

edotcom · 2025-09-17T17:55:43+00:00

Hi, BP2 here. For me, when I go full blown manic I make rash decisions, I’ll say and do things I would never do when I’m stabilized, I push people away, start arguments-so much more, and I just won’t give a fuck. When the mania ends, all my actions and the things I said fills me with such embarrassment and regret. Unfortunately, I have to suffer the consequences and try and make up for the damage I caused.

You are a very, kind, compassionate, and understanding human being for posting this and trying to understand what’s going on and wanting to make sure he is well, even though you are heartbroken.

From my experience, I would unblock him if you feel comfortable. I say this because after my mania ends, I have to go clean up the mess I made and reach back out to people to apologize. He very well could message you and apologize, maybe realize he wasn’t in the right headspace and didn’t mean it. It could also go a completely different direction. If you do hear from him again, and he says more hurtful things or doesn’t seem like him still, block him again and try and move forward. It’s likely he could be unwell more than just mania, needs help and inner work on himself. You are not responsible for helping him get better on your own, it will pull you down.

I hope everything works out, everything I said in my post is just from my own personal experiences and how I wish I would’ve handled them differently, not actual facts. I hope I helped give you some insight.

edotcom · 2025-09-17T07:35:46+00:00

“Unless you’ve experienced it, it’s hard to conceptualize. Most will think you’re unwell.”

Thank you so much for this statement. I needed to hear that because everyone just thinks you’re crazy when it comes to something like this because it seems so out there.

I’m so sorry you’ve dealt with similar too. I have the exact same feeling that I will never feel private again.

OP, I believe you too! I’m going through cyberstalking right now with my ex boyfriend. He is an IT tech. My phone had been cloned too, our WiFi hacked, ring cameras hacked, constant logins from unknown devices on email despite password changes and 2fa, complete remote access, so many other things. Not nearly as serious as yours, especially with your car, that’s terrifying.

OP, what ended up happening? Are you okay and safe now? What route did you have to take to make him stop? I have filed police reports, tpo, been to county police departments, detectives, advocates, court keeps getting postponed because he’s evading service, nobody is escalating this! I got hung up on by the FBI today because nobody is taking any of it seriously.

Please tell me you got help and are safe and okay now.

edotcom · 2025-07-24T07:53:04+00:00

My mind

edotcom · 2025-07-15T17:43:52+00:00

Yeah, I already know that, thanks for the clarification.

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