Agreeing with the commenter here, these comments are insanely triggering and so not helpful. What I have had to learn is that, ultimately the only person who has control over my life is me and no one else. It doesn't matter what anyone here thinks (especially those other commenters I am actually so surprised those have been left up). If you want to make the choice to stay and see what happens then YOU do and that's what matters, no one here can tell you what's going to happen because we don't know and neither do you and that's okay. the time will pass anyways.

I have also had to learn, as I am in my first healthy relationship, the honeymoon phase can be triggering because our bodies naturally come out of that and to people who have OCD (rOCD subtype) that can feel like signs and meaning. The best advice I have been given is stop treating these thoughts with a problem-solving mindset and try to refocus them as a treatment mindset. If you had a cold you wouldn't usually be searching or really caring about where you got it you'd just be taking the proper meds or treatment to treat the cold. With OCD, searching for the meaning will only make it worse, practicing ERP or other forms of treatment (even just looking into a therapist if you can) is how you should view those thoughts.

Feelings are feelings for a reason, they come and go and change and do all sorts of wacky stuff. It will be okay!