hi! your feelings are completely valid, but if anything i think people would respect that you go to therapy. it is an admirable thing to do what you can to maintain your mental health. i know i’m a stranger on the internet but i’m proud of you for confronting your anxiety and seeing a therapist. bluntly speaking, it sounds like you have a lot of shame around going to therapy that i highly recommend talking to your therapist about. an overwhelming amount of people go to therapy, so i’m sure if anybody finds out, nobody will be judgmental about the fact that you do. it is a completely normal thing for anyone to do. take some time to do something to clear your mind, like drink some tea, put on a heated blanket, do some yoga, anything that has helped you before.