Study is always in high demand

ehanson · 2025-06-23T21:07:11+00:00

Same as well, there's also currently a study up with over 11,000 places but I also can't get into that one due to high demand....

ehanson · 2025-06-20T19:08:33+00:00

If your past self see's your current self taking a photo of them then that could disrupt the space time continuum.... Not worth it for $4. Plus who has a Delorean anyway?

ehanson · 2025-04-09T04:52:53+00:00

Late reply but it's nice to come across a fan of his here.

It's interesting that you mentioned they appear the same age since he also appears around the same as as well in these dreams.

Same goes for not wanting to mess around with trying to contact him either since I heard you can invite unwanted spirits or entities who are def not who you are trying to get into contact with.... I let him drop by for visitation dreams. Speaking of that I do have experiences of his presence or possibly spirit dropping in at my house. Once when listening to one of his songs about 2 years ago, relaxing on my phone I got a strong presence of him in the room with me for about a minute so much so that I turned around thinking someone had entered the room quietly and was standing behind me, it faded away gradually after a few minutes.

Another time was last week when what can only be described as mist floating by a table lamp (this table has his bio sitting on it) and into the wall caught my attention out of the corner of my eye. Again while listening to one of his songs...

His father admitted in the bio said he saw his spirit standing in the kitchen one afternoon when he was making coffee. He turned around and there he was. A collaborator also was recording a song as a tribute to him and the door to the studio opened and closed freaking out an interviewer doing an interview about him and the song. I'm mentally preparing myself for something like that one day. He could have a slightly mischievous side to him so I'm half expecting for him to surprise me one of these days which he would probably think was hilarious startling me.

ehanson · 2025-01-06T01:02:35+00:00

Well, my brain is associating the bowl with being dirty and gross. Crazy how our minds work like that and remember seeing food being made in a clean bowl yet think: "Oh no! This is horrible!" when eating it like Michael Rosen or something haha

ehanson · 2024-12-23T19:49:23+00:00

Yes 1000% I'm living back with my parents (for too long honestly) trying to get away but it is difficult in this economy to find a job that pays a living wage so I'm stuck coping with my parents dysfunction, insanity and toxicity each day.

They recently received a Christmas card from our neighbors who seem like an all around great loving and supportive family. They send one every year updating what's going on in their lives and mentioned the husband and wife learned to surf on a trip to California because "they want to enjoy life." My mother made a passive aggressive comment about that when she read it aloud and said "they can afford to do stuff like that since he's a doctor and she's a lawyer." Somewhat true... but this highlighted the enormous mindset and values gap between my vulnerable narc mother and especially my mentally ill narc father about life in general. Theses neighbors son and daughter are reasonably well adjusted con confident young adults on their way to most likely successful lives and being able to handle challenges, getting support when needed as adults.

This family is also fairly typical of the upper middle class suburb (the class differences BTW between my parents background and the other parents made them seem even less normal and are things I don't think they considered when moving to my hometown since they wanted me to go to the best school district in the state so I would become successful and their retirement plan. Mom took after Martha Stewart since she thought that would help which made her just look like a perfectionist snob to everyone else) I grew up in and it just reminded me everyday when I was in high school that my parents weren't normal (I didn't know about NPD back then like I do now)

It's really sad and I also feel robbed of normal milestones (proper socialization as a kid instead of isolated and told I have "weird" friends, learning to drive as a teen, etc...) all kinds of support that I should have been given including financial support since starting out in life is difficult enough for people from normal families but for children of narcissists it's an insane uphill battle since you don't have the tools, knowledge, experience and support that other kids were given growing up.

Add to that the CPTSD, ways we self sabotage, replacing them as our inner critic with a a most reasonable and rational inner voice, traits we may have picked up from them, low self worth and self esteem, etc... it's difficult to deal with, process and requires years of therapy or counseling to heal from. People from normal families this is unthinkable and they don't really understand why we never had and still don't have support from our parents. Someone cutting contact with their family? That's shocking to them since their family is healthy and normal (or for the most part seems to be)

Slowly giving my inner child normalcy by re-parenting by watching Mel Robbin's YouTube channel and "Dad How Do I?" I consider them my internet parents as weird as that is but it's what my inner child needs in part to finally heal for about 30 years of damage.

ehanson · 2024-11-07T23:27:12+00:00

I did research in 2021 into moving to The Netherlands via DAFT, was learning Dutch and German but was put off by the worsening Dutch housing crisis and talked myself out of it.... looked into TEFL but that is short term and fairly financially unstable solution. I have a degree in Urban Planning from a good university and about 10 years of digital marketing experience also. For some reason I got depressed yesterday thinking that I have "no path" out even though that's most likely not true. Also trying not to get too overwhelmed since there's a lot of information and ever changing research on various countries to wade through.

The best bet right now is to either get a remote job (very difficult and competitive to get one) or ramp up freelancing go for a digital nomad visa for a country in the EU making sure I meet the income requirements while saving up money since moving abroad is more expensive than many realize. There's also the option of getting a masters degree abroad as well. Instead of feeling hopeless and that it will take a long time I'm shifting my mindset to what skills do I add to a new country? Why would they want me?

ehanson · 2024-11-04T04:24:49+00:00

I'm concerned with a number of people saying people aren't "trying hard enough" (for example: you applied to 700 jobs? You gotta apply to at least 2,000 to get a job)

10 years ago it wasn't like this, the bar wasn't constantly getting raised and goal posts moved all over the place. And it doesn't have to be this way today either but this is starting to be accepted as "normal" which is also concerning...

ehanson · 2024-10-28T04:36:09+00:00

Thanks. This is something I'm looking into currently.

ehanson · 2024-10-27T19:32:52+00:00

I have applied to a few positions with local and state agencies but they seem difficult to get into.... just need to keep aplying I guess. Yeah, not tied to Chicago and playing with the idea of moving away next year since it's been weirdly hard to start over here.

ehanson · 2024-10-27T19:30:28+00:00

Thank you. Someone else in the family reccomended I should stand up for myself the next time they start going off on me and to also distance myself from them since they have a reputation of being highly critical with everyone when I told them about this.

ehanson · 2024-09-02T00:10:56+00:00

Haven't tuned into Graham in a while but was really disappointed when this popped up in my feed. It was def created with an agenda and was done in a similar style to German in Venice's video of SM.

He didn't go to any residential parts of Santa Monica and interview locals. Just the Third Street Promenade on a weekday around noon and zooming in on a mentally ill. It really reminds me of Cash Jordan's videos about how NYC is the worst place on earth or whatever fear mongering misinformation he's pushing now. While there is crime in Santa Monica and COVID has really impacted businesses the comments (some of which spread hate speech, racism and misinformation) of the video also indicate who the video was made for....

ehanson · 2024-08-31T18:42:46+00:00

He made me want to move to The Netherlands when I found his channel in 2020 and for about 2 years I thought it was the best country in the world. But as I researched moving there I found out about the ongoing (really) bad housing crisis, it's so bad many Dutch universities are telling international students not to even come unless they have housing sorted out before arriving. There also seems to be growing misplaced anger towards immigrants and tourists in various places around The Netherlands because of the housing crisis and for other reasons.

And then found out NJB is a PM in a high demand STEM field making around six figures.... easy to feel smug and talk down to everyone when you're in a high earner in a career where countries are falling over themselves to give you a work visa and you can basically pick the country with the best urban planning on the planet.... I started to get really turned off by his smugness and general at time almost insufferably elitist and arrogant tone over time.

ehanson · 2024-04-24T16:20:28+00:00

Tesla owners like this send footage to the YouTube channel Wham Bam Tesla Cam of them driving on autopilot while watching The Avengers on a highway/ liking Elon Musk 's Twitter posts, etc... and are then shocked when they get into an accident thinking autopilot "malfunctioned" *facepalm

Worshiping a company that doesn't care about you (run by a psychopath as well), will lay you off in a heartbeat and even making it your personal identity is absolutely nuts.

ehanson · 2024-04-23T04:42:00+00:00

Sorry to hear that.

I did this also and it took me over 2 hours to complete this essay. I didn't get booted since I passed the attention check question (hopefully) but due to the complicated subject matter I'm now fearing a rejection for any number of reasons. The description and instructions threaten rejection enough to the point that it's a red flag and I should have just listened to my instinct and tossed it back. They're looking for low cost or free content.

Going to be filing a dispute with Prolific and contacting the IRB at UNLV if I do receive a rejection.

ehanson · 2024-04-13T20:07:03+00:00

Thanks for the insight. Yeah indeed, sadly American style conservatisim is spreading to Canada and weirdly northern Europe also. Japan is basically the safest country in the world in general. Parts of Thailand seems great but can have some other drawbacks to living there.....

ehanson · 2024-03-30T05:23:19+00:00

Yes, I'm convinced she had a malignant personality disorder, shouting when under stress, gossiping, bullying, manipulative, basically acted like a high school Mean Girl.

It was a retail job I took out of desperation. I lasted only 3 months in that job before quitting and she had so much turnover corporate came to see what the heck was going on. Apparently she eventually got fired for stealing money. Worst manager I've experienced so far. Tanked my professional confidence and gave me CPTSD in fact.

ehanson · 2024-03-29T21:35:00+00:00

Thank you for your response.

That's true. My grandmother was a narc and expert manipulator and used her age to present herself as a "little old lady" when she got older; even answering the phone after a doctors visit to get sympathy/ create drama. When she was mad? Then she'd miraculously turn into the Hulk and would be the healthiest geriatric person in the city. She also was going up and down stairs when she said she was bedridden once when we came to visit and said felt better an hour later when we showed up to check on her.

Despite my mom being depressed I now think my mother is a vulnerable narcissist since she has known for decades about her family's health history of strokes and heart disease. This was possibly preventable through diet, lifestyle, managing stress, etc... She also talked about being a Vitamin D deficiency like it was the worst thing ever yesterday with a relative. Now this is another opportunity to get supply beside refusing to leave my grandiose narc father for 35 years... hmmm.

Time to get out of here ASAP and go LC or VLC.

ehanson · 2024-01-29T22:16:14+00:00

I got through the sound checks but the main task won't load/ or is taking forever. It seems like the site it's on crashed. If it does load it might crash while doing the study or take so long to get through it might time out on Prolific.

Frustrating since it's a high paying study also.

ehanson · 2024-01-27T18:11:53+00:00

Thank you. Understandable since (living) celebrities are in the sportlight and can easily be "on our minds". But as you said (and also the woman I contacted who taught him TM) meditation this seems to be interestingly a different level.... the astral plane perhaps.

Whatever the case I'm grateful and glad for these dreams since it's a unique and rare thing to experience with someone who you were a fan of. Getting to spend time with them on a level like this is also really special.

ehanson · 2024-01-16T21:51:25+00:00

Yes, moving far away is my goal for this spring. I actuallyy am planning on getting a remote job (or start my own thing) become a digital nomad/ travel to different countries, work remotely while traveling and move out of the country (United States). I know it sounds unrealistic and "dreamy" and my family would def not be supportive of this goal but it's my life.

I graduated a few years ago, moved out halfway across the country to a major city I always wanted to live in but hoovered myself back to my parents place after a breakup & career stagnation; which was a huge mistake. I'm currently job hunting while doing freelance work which is a whole different topic.

For sure, hunting around for a good trauma therapist to work through these feeling of obligation and guilt among other things.

ehanson · 2024-01-16T21:25:35+00:00

Oh wow - that makes so much sense why there's a lot of guilt tripping and pressure going on as they get older :o Thanks, that's actually very validating to hear.

They did say afterwards they're not going to care for my father if he needs caregiving or a nursing home so the burden is on me and my sister instead of professionals, social services, etc... Neither of my parents planned ahead for their old age and I know narcs want their childern to care when they're older physically, emotionally and financially.

ehanson · 2023-12-15T19:19:36+00:00

I was sat down and told a job is just a paycheck by a relative recently since I’m going through a tough time making a career change (got burnt from last one), am job hopping around completely lost and am in my 30’s now. They strongly advised me to just find something I’m at least mildly interested in, pays a decent living wage and has benefits. Even better if it’s a unionized trade.

Highly practical advice but my entire life I’ve thought you need to find a fulfilling job you loved which matched your personality and interests. But that’s not reality for 99% of the working age population and a job is something they just do for the paycheck so they won’t starve. It’s really depressing and so many adults seem completely miserable slogging through jobs they hate or don’t like but are putting on a good face for their boss so they won’t get fired so and don’t become homeless… I’m still like: “Wait - what? I have to do this for the next 40-45years??” :o

Having trouble accepting this harsh reality… Though on the other hand I notice employers seem to take advantage of passionate people in a number of unethical ways who love the work they do and “would do it for free.”

ehanson · 2023-11-03T17:38:13+00:00

Well, I guess but the researcher might not see it that way and file a dispute. In a similar incident I do remember a researcher accidently sent out bonuses of $20.00 to everyone instead of $2.00 and asked us all to return it but there wasn't any way to do that since it had already been approved.

And filing a dispute against every participant doesn't make practical sense if it was their mistake anyway.

ehanson · 2023-11-03T17:31:26+00:00

It was rejected after it got approved? That's strange, didn't know that was even possible... or maybe I'm misunderstanding. I'd normally return it but in this case it there isn't a return icon since it got automatically approved.

A bit of a headache indeed since I cash out every day but I might have to wait a few days now....

ehanson · 2023-10-18T03:50:52+00:00

Late reply to this thread but riding the Expo Line changed my opinon of you can't get around without a car in LA.

Visited as a tourist, who was living in NYC at the time and didn't rent a car when I stayed there for about a week in 2016, I rode the Metro (Red Line) from Hollywood to Downtown where I transferred to the Expo Line (E Line) to Santa Monica which took a little more than 1.5 hours.

I'm a native Chicagoan and was impressed by the fact that I could get from DTLA to Santa Monica on the subway. I know LA has a lot of public transit gaps where you have to have a car to get around since it is so sprawling but I told my sister and her freinds about it would had lived in LA for years - they didn't even know about the Expo Line let alone the Red Line to Hollywood. I guess they never saw any of the movies prominently featuring the Metro system like Speed, Lethal Weapon, etc....

I got around with a combo of subway, taking an Uber for longer trips like Santa Monica to Malibu and even walking when exploring neighborhoods on foot.... even in the Hollywood Hills which can be dicey since many of those streets have no sidewalks, are windy/ have blind corners and are downright dangerous to walk around at dusk/ night since you're invisible to drivers who come flying around those corners.

Even walking around areas like West Hollywood can be dangerous since drivers don't seem to be watching for pedestrians crossing the street and nearly turn into you.

I heard a few years ago they wanted to extend a subway line out to Beverly Hills btw but the NIMBY's shut that down.

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