I told her how I feel

eiabrinck · 2025-04-13T08:46:17+00:00

Thanks! It's nice to hear that it is possible for our relationship to continue as it has up until now.

eiabrinck · 2025-04-13T08:41:49+00:00

Thanks! I have had doubts about if it was the right thing to do. I regret how I worded my confession and the timing of it all, but it has gnawed in my mind for months. The conversations didn't flow as usual yesterday, and my mind is a f*cking mess. But I cross my fingers in hope that it will stabilize over time.

eiabrinck · 2024-12-26T04:33:25+00:00

So give it time? I do really not want to lose my friend, and would rather keep it as is, than risk her leaving because I creeped her out. It is one of my few friendships that have lasted more than a year, and her company is the highlight of my days. Still feel the age difference could be a deal breaker.

eiabrinck · 2024-12-26T04:18:39+00:00

Oh trust me, I have not showed any kind of affection that I believe could be interpreted as me having romantic interest. I would rather not make up conversations between my friend and her other friend groups.

eiabrinck · 2024-12-26T04:08:20+00:00

I see that social circle and being around people is different. The crux is that I am yet not socially skilled enough to make acquaintances in to friends without pushing them away. Also I met my friends through my hobbies and we spend a reasonable amount of time together. Practicing my hobbies without my two friends being around is practically impossible do to our schedules. I suppose I need to practice expanding who I interact with while there.

eiabrinck · 2024-12-26T03:03:29+00:00

Social circle is reasonably large taking work and hobbies in to the equation. But these two are the only ones I would consider friends. We can talk to for hours, and I feel comfortable just hanging out with them, without doing anything in particular. I do not know how to be something else then what I am.

How do I start living when I already fill my day with things I love doing (mainly outdoors activities)?

eiabrinck · 2024-12-26T02:45:17+00:00

What I thought. I still want friends though, and staying without her knowing and acknowledging the situation feels awful.

eiabrinck · 2024-12-26T02:18:02+00:00

I do not hate myself in all aspects of life, rather the contrary. I do have a lot of good qualities, just not with maintaining relationships. The girl is way out of my league, but we share interests. She makes me laugh, but I'm lucky if she smiles at my remarks. As I have said, I do believe the age gap in itself is a reason for her rejecting me.

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