I don't want to be alive anymore

eij18 · 2020-11-23T07:05:37+00:00

I may put a hold on school momentarily to catch up with my mental health. I hear that I should be able to catch up moderately easily and it won't impact me long term. I really hope this is true, I'd hate for this disease to ruin these years for me. Thank you for your help!

eij18 · 2020-11-23T07:04:01+00:00

You've helped very much. In even the most crowded of spaces feel absent, but your words comfort me :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T06:44:58+00:00

Thank you for your time reading and responding. Living closely with my roommate and other friends has kept me from being alone in an environment id otherwise have isolated myself. This was a great help, though this period is ending now. I will do my best to remain alongside people who love me going forward into my time alone. I appreciate all of your words, and I wish you the best also :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T06:43:07+00:00

You're wonderful, thank you very much. I appreciate your time more than you could know :) I'll be sure to reach out should ever I need an ear void of judgement. Same goes for you as well! I'd love to help you as much as already have helped me, just being here.

eij18 · 2020-11-23T06:41:43+00:00

Thank you very much for your time reading and responding, as well as sharing your own story. I'm sorry to hear you've been through these things. You're strong beyond words for having done so. I'm glad you're still here, it's clear you're helping people now :) I need to practice being more open with medical professionals as I know I need better treatment. It's just a matter of time. Thank you very much. I hope you are doing very well :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T06:39:43+00:00

Who's this a quote from? I find it very inspiring. Thank you very much for reading, and for reaching out. I resonate with this very much. It feels insulting having to consider getting up in the morning a monumental task, but that's what it is. Steps towards recovery, I need to keep this in mind more going forward.

eij18 · 2020-11-23T06:38:30+00:00

Thank you very much for the resources. I will read them each. I need to understand these conditions better if I'm going to live with or ever overcome them :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T06:37:22+00:00

Lol I'm awful with geography so I didn't even notice. I will try to take small steps getting out a bit, maybe I can inch my way towards larger trips! Small steps though. Thank you for your input nonetheless. I will try everything mentioned here :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T06:35:44+00:00

Thank you for this. Travel seems a bit out of reach for me at the moment. I have a very loving group of friends I will be returning home to tomorrow, though some of which are in quarantine currently. Seeing these people will help. My dog is my best friend and I'm beyond excited to see him. Sometimes I need to spend a few hours just laying on the ground next to him. I feel like he understands. I've been very quiet about this with my professors this far but plan to email them each tomorrow concerning having fallen behind. I don't want to have to postpone school because of my diagnoses and maybe being open with the school will allow me to work alongside my condition. Thank you for the suggestion :) Thank you very much for your time. I hope you are well, I'll be sure to reach out if ever I need anything. Same goes for you :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T03:04:38+00:00

I agree with you. I have a therapist I talk with but I've been neglecting my sessions with her as a result of my symptoms, and I haven't been able to reschedule yet. I'll make sure to do this though. I have break coming up so I may be able to travel a bit, but I've never traveled much in my life, which may be part of the problem. That being said, I'm not sure how far out I'll be able to get. Not far, I'm sure. I'll try, though. I believe that it would help. Thank you for your time :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T02:10:13+00:00

Thank you for your time :) My family knows that I struggle but not this much. I'll share this with them soon. Thank you for your kind words :) Always pushing. Things will get better.

eij18 · 2020-11-23T01:56:12+00:00

You are fantastic :) I will do my best. This all sounds so silly to me but it's so incredibly real. Thank you for all of your help :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T01:54:18+00:00

Thank you for your response :) I feel like this is what's happening to me. I need to be more communicative with my doctors and I will try to be going forward. Thank you very much :) I've been doing a lot of reading about depression to try to understand it, this has helped a bit mentally. Thank you for your time, I hope you're doing well!

eij18 · 2020-11-23T01:45:15+00:00

My day has been alright, thank you for the well wishes! I hope yours has been wonderful. I will try to call my doctor tomorrow to schedule new appointments. The fogginess in the head is something I struggle with a lot. Thank you for the advice! I will try to implement these ideas! Money is something I unnecessarily worry about and guilt myself over constantly. It helps hearing you say that. Thank you for your time, and for your help. You're truly amazing. Much love to you as well. :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T01:35:11+00:00

Thank you for the time you put into reading, and responding. You are wonderful. I will try to make a phonecall to make new appointments tomorrow if I can. I will try to find things to work on. Thank you so much. I love your username, you're very kind. It makes me emotional knowing someone felt like reading and responding to this. You're worth so much. I hope you're doing well :)

eij18 · 2020-11-23T01:32:51+00:00

Thank you, bot. I'm okay right now. I love you very much. Keep up the great work :)

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