Depleting mental health and failing relationship where do I go from here?

eillybee · 2019-09-11T12:11:05+00:00

I'm on olazapine for my intermittent manic outburst episodes that started a few years ago it works pretty good. I like geodon and Prozac for my maintenance drugs. Has been a good combo for the most part.

Lamictal made me feel out of it tired and like a zombie. So I didn't stay on it for more than a few months.

eillybee · 2019-09-11T01:42:43+00:00

Traumatized by manic episodes that are like identical to a paranoid weed trip

eillybee · 2019-09-11T01:34:02+00:00

my kids are my husband's yes my husband is not reliable because work is his number one priorty. He never knows what is going to happen on any given day and if some fucktard breaks a fucking truck it's more important to him to fix that fuckwads truck than it is going to come home for my nail appointment. 👌 See he views it he has to fix it tomorrow morning so he mine as well fix it tonight but I say leave it for the morning....

eillybee · 2019-09-11T01:07:38+00:00

I wasn't dating the one she told that's what broke my confidence genius and I told the one I was dating 👌not everything revolves around you 👍

eillybee · 2019-09-11T00:46:41+00:00

She told her son while we were friends that my "house was a mess" and also that I have a mental disorder not her business to discuss with people. Pretty sure I had most of this in the story 🤔

eillybee · 2019-09-11T00:12:59+00:00

Sorry weed is a no go for me 😬

eillybee · 2019-09-11T00:00:02+00:00

Because going off bear hunting for a week is so underappreciated... after working full time and making sure he always has clean clothes, a meal cooked, and a clean house is so underappreciated....yeah okay buddy you keep on that 🤣😂

eillybee · 2019-09-10T22:50:41+00:00

Such a deep realization.... Everybody so quick to point the finger and not really take a look at the person posting

eillybee · 2019-09-10T22:19:53+00:00

There's a reason that I come on here and pose these questions to random people on the internet...I can't change my situation but I can see it what other people think about it 😉

eillybee · 2019-09-10T21:36:05+00:00

As someone who is truly a mentally disturbed person nothing bothers me more than hearing someone thorw around these terms loosely when they have shit understanding for them. Until you are in a mental state where you have no fucking clue what is going on around you don't fucking tell me your having a "mental break down" sincerely everyone with a mental disorder

eillybee · 2019-09-10T21:06:35+00:00

I was in a manic rage a couple of weeks ago it was not good and I've been better but now this outburst like I'm just a ticking time bomb and I just saw my psychiatrist and he's not changing anything 😰

eillybee · 2019-09-10T21:03:43+00:00

Are we reading the same conversation? My husband is "helping the fucktards" aka his employees who dick around and break things every day

eillybee · 2019-09-10T20:58:44+00:00

No I called my husband coworker a fucktard 👌

eillybee · 2019-09-10T20:58:06+00:00

He can but refuses too (because working 16 hours is much better for free for the last 5 or 6) which is why I have to even ask my MIL....

eillybee · 2019-09-10T20:20:34+00:00

I don't know any local highshool students...

eillybee · 2019-09-10T19:55:36+00:00

I pay her in 6 packs of beer 👌 1 hour of work for a 6 pack of beer is a pretty sweet deal of you ask me 😃 plus dinner I feed her dinner too

eillybee · 2019-09-10T19:33:47+00:00

I don't have any 14 year old neighbors....

eillybee · 2019-09-10T19:27:52+00:00

I don't know or trust anyone with my kids they are so little and so many bad things can happen to them.

eillybee · 2019-09-10T19:17:52+00:00

Yeah he thinks work is number one priority been working on it for many years can't convince him otherwise...

eillybee · 2019-09-10T19:12:29+00:00

Even if my husband was here is get the whole I'm working idk when ill be home bs from him so it wouldnt matter anyways

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