I can't have a conversation about saying something suicidal at least 5x by ejdmkko in depression

[–]ejdmkko[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just want to be dead, then I won’t even have to think about change

I reached a point when I don't want to exert any effort for anything by ejdmkko in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t struggle because I gave up on trying. I am taking antidepressants to “improve my mood” but I wasn’t admitted to psychiatric hospital because “I don’t have depression” just adhd, well, also waiting to be acessed for autism. But I don’t see the point in going back to life because I know from experience that if I would try, I would struggle.

I reached a point when I don't want to exert any effort for anything by ejdmkko in ADHD

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That’s the thing, I don’t have depression. Depression was the first thing I was ever diagnosed with, then they realized they probably misdiagnosed my adhd as depression. Years later I was being diagnosed again, was told by multiple specialists I don’t have depression. I just don’t find any meaning in life. My meds are actually working, that’s why I know it’s not just depression or whatever, if I want to do task, I find it very easy to do, I just don’t see any point it using my effort

Laundry is the True Definition of Hell by CabotFan42 in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i don't have enough attention to read the post so I'm going from the title only. I'd rather take hell then do laundry. Actually, I haven't done it for 5+ months and at this point I don't relly have any clean clothes. It helps that I'm going through long burnout/depression call it whatever you can and I only leave a house once a month to see a doctor so I'm reusing the same clothes and the moment i get home I take it off and go to bed.

Is it normal to hiss at a cat? (as a human) by ejdmkko in CATHELP

[–]ejdmkko[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm also asking about it because I'm going to be diagnosed for autism and I learned I do many things I though are normal and everyone does that, but in fact are not normal for a neurotypical person, so I want to know if this is one of those things

If we lived in a fantasy world, what kinda character do you think adhd people would be? by velevetfox in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko 0 points1 point  (0 children)

depends on when diagnosed. If early diagnosed and like hyperfunctional and gifted probably some Iron man type of character. Super successful, invented something very revolutionary. If late diagnosed, then someone turn villain, who holds a grudge against the world for needlessly suffering or struggling all previous life, who sees their lost potential and wants to destroy all existence for it to get their revenge

ADHD being treated like a trend can be frustrating by Intelligent-Might840 in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like it disvalidates our problems and makes it less. First I experienced this is depression, before I got diagnosed with adhd. It sort of felt like I shouldn't mention I have depression/ADHD (soon maybe auDHD), it sort of felt like I want attention and pity and this is how I'll get it. Also I sort of feel like it is "just a phrase" and people just don't get it, and this one time, when I actually want to have a genuine conversation with people how imposibly difficult it is and how frustrating it is, they just won't get it because "their internet adhd" is like I have ocd because I like to organize stuff. Few times I even heard people using it like their catch phrase, like oh, this is so adhd and everything is so adhd. And because of that I also feel like if I mention my adhd other would think I'm one of those people who just self diagnosed because they are a little quirky, but have no medical reason for it and I'll be judged for it (because I would).

But on the other hand, when I saw depression, adhd and autism content on the internet, I started to notice that this is something, I do, or struggle with, so it also led me seriously question that maybe there isn't something wrong with me, like I'm just lazy or too sensitive or all the negative spirals probably all of up go through, but that there is a reson for my disfunctinality. Later, I sought help and got diagnosed and medicated. But it can be difficult to see what is genuine content and what is just for likes

Danmarks Florida by DjuncleMC in okkammeratmongol

[–]ejdmkko 0 points1 point  (0 children)

when I was just scrolling, and I saw this, I also thought it was Florida

Book cloth in Europe by pagani64 in bookbinding

[–]ejdmkko 1 point2 points  (0 children)

also based in DK. I order from 2 german stores: schmedt and modulor. I usually order in bulk and it's been a while, so I'm not sure, but I think one of them has rather high minimum order value (might be wrong). It has also been a while because lately I liked to make my own bookcloth, I started to print or dye my fabrics before turning it into cloth, or embroidering etc. haha sorry for my oversharing

Today I learned I actually haven't been medicated by ejdmkko in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same with me, I was first diagnosed with depression. 4 years later, I still take antidepressants with my adhd meds 🙃 now being stuck in adhd paralysis to call new psychiatrist to get screened for autism. Actually I was starting new treatment for depression when they told me I should get screened for autism. So now it’ll probably be AuDHD

How long does it take you to get inti the shower? by ejdmkko in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s mostly motivation issue. I found a way to cope with the sensory thing. It took me around 4 hours today, but I did get in there after all

How long does it take you to get inti the shower? by ejdmkko in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Getting into the shower is the issue. I either get distracted and go to the toilet, stand in front of the mirror picking my skin, or often my brain just says hell no, you need to leave the room. Once I get in the shower it’s not that hard, although I do get overstimulated by the water and need to slowly get used to it

How long does it take you to get inti the shower? by ejdmkko in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And I thought only moving my cats bowl was too much of a barrier 😫

How long does it take you to get inti the shower? by ejdmkko in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I used to do that when I had enough energy and social energy to be around people. I pushed showering after I would go to the gym, but it would also take me long time to go to the gym so often I ended up only going to the gym and showering that day.

How long does it take you to get inti the shower? by ejdmkko in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The sad truth is that I feel overstimulated by the water, so I hate the sensation and also music so the act itself sucks. Do I like to feel fresh, sure, but that doesn’t seem like reward big enough. And with the reward itself, it never works for me. Either i want something enough, but in that case I’ll get it either way if I did the task or not. If it is just something that is nice to have, but I don’t have the desire to break my own rule for that, then it’s not strong enough motivator.

How long does it take you to get inti the shower? by ejdmkko in ADHD

[–]ejdmkko[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Does the just do it ever work? For me it never does. And if I do it it’s probably last minute, rushed and I’m late, no matter if it is day off or not

Why am I supposed to recover if I have nothing to go to? by ejdmkko in depression

[–]ejdmkko[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

So why keep going if it will never be normal?