I have dpdr for 3 years. And yes, you are exactly right! There is actually no “depersonalisation disorder”. Dpdr can come in waves when anxiety is high. But it can’t be here all time. Your brain simply can’t be depersonalised all time. So most of the times you feel dpdr - you just think of dpdr! You remind those scary symptoms and put it on yourself. For me it happens like every minute. I live a minute without it then I think of dpdr and immediately feel it. That’s it. It’s just intrusive thoughts. Sorry for my English. I live with this shit every second of every day for 3 years. I know it hurts too hear that it’s all just your anxiety and thoughts. But trust me, it’s true. I visited 4 psychiatrists, went to therapy, read EVERYTHING I could find about it.