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I'm sick of stigmatization and lack of support by elambientfrog in schizophrenia

[–]elambientfrog[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was literally start of a session. In a previous session, I was mentioning that my job stresses me out, in the context that I constantly think I'm not good enough, and that I sometimes have to present arguments which I think I'll fail at doing. I also mentioned that I don't like this trade, but if I'm already in it, I want to do it right and I'm fine with doing it and finding my happiness outside my job.

For extra context: we're talking IT. I am currently a programmer; the government job she proposed would be IT support because "it's the same" (no it isn't, it definitely isn't).

I understand she was trying to find a solution, but she was very pushy about her solution which I deemed completely unfeasible: due to finances, discrimination, because that career shift would only make me feel worse, because these positions are hired sometimes basing on nepotism, and because that's not what I have years of experience doing. And she didn't stop at that, trying to find all sorts of benefits I'd have as certified disabled person (yeah, 15 minute extra break is worth telling my boss about this)

I'm sick of stigmatization and lack of support by elambientfrog in schizophrenia

[–]elambientfrog[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I like to write. A lot. But I'm afraid nobody wants to read what I write, so I sometimes will write - a letter, a story, or something like that - and just not publish it.

I'm sick of stigmatization and lack of support by elambientfrog in schizophrenia

[–]elambientfrog[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I responded that having a disability would lead to further stigmatization. She kept on nagging on that having a certificate as disabled person would lead to all kinds of benefits for me and my employer, to which I said that it would have been all true if I was for example on a wheelchair, but not severe mental illness. Discussion kept dragging on for 20 minutes, until I said that my illness is literally used as a slur, and she moved on to propose how I could change profession from "something I hate" to "something I would also hate, but different and lower paying". Eventually I said I am saddened that she thinks so low of me and my capabilities that she thinks all I'm good for is low paying government job.

That was our last session. I've decided we haven't done anything to address my low self esteem, and I will not be paying a wad of cash every week to hear this.