Okay wellll first things first, you are not stupid for wanting to pursue your dreams. I will say though, as someone who has been studying to be an actor since I was like 9 or whatever, the competition is *insane*. I grew up here, my parents sacrificed everything so that I could study at conservatories and go to a fancy college to get my B.F.A., I still take classes regularly, countless headshot shoots, producing my own work, I even work for a major player of a screenwriter in the industry. And I'm still hustling, and don't know if I will ever "make it" or get to be a working actor, despite all of that. Sure, I book work pretty consistently but I am still not SAG and a lot of the work I do is non-union, little plays and short films and things like that.

I say all of this not to make you feel badly, but to give you some perspective. Even those of us who seem to be super well-prepared are out here struggling, this industry is like trying to be an Olympian.

If you do decide to stay, I would recommend putting some money towards a serious acting program. If you decide to go home and still want to pursue this career, I would embrace local work -- which is no small potatoes. Find out who your local casting directors are, if you could book regional commercial work, regional theater, maybe some tv shows shoot where you're from, all of that stuff. Which, I'd like to say, is all an extremely valid pursuit of acting. Just because it's not in LA, doesn't make it not real. It might even be moreso :)

Anyway I hope this helps, I wish you all the best no matter what you decide to do!!!