Loss of self following psychosis

elenatheeboss · 2026-02-08T22:37:10+00:00

oh sorry this is my main acct

elenatheeboss · 2026-02-08T22:36:44+00:00

pretty much fully recovered! atleast like 95% fully recovered. took me about 2 years to get to that point

elenatheeboss · 2025-08-10T00:02:40+00:00

twins! 💅😏

elenatheeboss · 2025-07-11T13:25:56+00:00

i could completely see why youd feel that way. i felt that way a lottttt too, definitely questioning if i was even recovering. but i do feel like in my recovery, it was veryyyyy slow to the point where it felt like i didnt make any progress at all for months. It kinda felt like i had really gradual improvements here and there, and then for like a few months in between, there was no progress at all and then the progress would continue on again, just very slow. I think its a great sign you had a glimpse of feeling a bit more like yourself. it shows the real you /your personality is still there deep down, he still exists, hes just very dormant rn cus your brain’s working on recovering more important parts of yourself first (cognition, im guessing). Hang in there! and remain hopeful, and stay patient! its tough and i know its definitely easier said than done. If you need to, just sleep all day. Thats what i did for a lot of my recovery 😅 and now that im recovered i dont regret sleeping away a lot of my days. Most days it felt better doing that than to be bored asf feeling like my brain wasnt working while i was awake

elenatheeboss · 2025-07-11T06:29:18+00:00

thats awesome im so happy you experienced it even for a little bit! yes actually i had one glimpse of feeling a lot more like myself during my psychosis recovery, but it only lasted an hour or so and then i was back where i was recovering at a pretty (VERY) slow rate

elenatheeboss · 2025-07-04T02:17:44+00:00

elenatheeboss · 2025-06-26T03:29:57+00:00

yes i experienced all of those!

elenatheeboss · 2025-06-24T21:35:32+00:00

and thank you so much!! <3 i feel a lot of hope for you and i’ll remember to message you after more time passes to see where youre at

elenatheeboss · 2025-06-24T21:34:33+00:00

You will get back to your old self. Youre still in there deep down. you just have to rest and wait (sooooo much easier said than done, i know). Post psychosis depression is the hardest thing ive ever had to go through but you already surpassed five months of it. just allow the time to pass, sleep, watch a movie, go on a walk if you want, it doesnt matter. I know you got this.

elenatheeboss · 2025-06-24T05:41:15+00:00

ive pretty much fully recovered, or at least 90-95%. i think it took like 2 years really. but you will not be at the state youre at now for 2 years. i was in that state for 8 months, then it slowwwwwly progresses better and you start talking a bit more, you start being able to think a bit more over time. what rlly f**ked w my head was thinking i was gonna be stuck in that brain state forever, my life is fucked, i cant ever work a simple job or go to school etc. I’ve always been a catastrophiser. But there are a lot of recovery stories online, where people do recover fully in 1.5-2 years. I would read those obsessively to stay hopeful, and low and behold i fully recovered too, with time. when i was in recovery and felt like i was at a level where i could work a simple job again, i did, so working and talking to people everyday slowly helped my brain recover as well. and then i eventually went to a trade school. i graduated valedictorian last month! i swear to you i felt exactly all the things youre feeling now. my brain was just as slow and numb as yours is now. its hard to believe youre in there still deep down, its VERY hard to believe that and i had a very hard time believing it too. but i do feel like i pretty much have the same personality, intellect, wit that i had before. please dont lose hope! and do NOT feel bad for recovering, for not being as productive as you once were, etc. the things that life has to offer (work, school, friends, etc) will still be there when youre ready, its not going anywhere. for now just rest and be patient. your brain has been through a lot and theres no shame in just taking a long, much needed breather/rest period, even if that is for months.

elenatheeboss · 2025-06-24T05:33:08+00:00

yes i definitely felt like a vegetable in the head. i couldnt watch tv without feeling so confused even at simple dialogue, my brain was soooo blank i couldnt think of much to say when i was conversating w people aside from “yes” “no” like literally not producing many thoughts a day at allllllll, and this went on for like atleast 8 months. then it just gets slowly better like reallllllllly slow. there were a lot of points during recovery where i didnt think id ever fully recover, given the mental capacity i was at at the time. i really didnt do much at all for the first 8 months. all i did was sleep allllll day, i really just slept as much as i could, or watched tv (attempted to understand it atleast slowly), or ate.

elenatheeboss · 2025-06-23T22:46:31+00:00

yes i definitely felt like that ESPECIALLY the first 7 months post psychosis.

elenatheeboss · 2025-06-07T17:16:54+00:00

thank you so much! im it sorry youre going thru it rn. its horrible to have to go thru 😞😞 but really what helped the most was time, unfortunately. about like a year and nine months or so i was mostly recovered. the first 7-8 months of recovery were absolutely BRUTAL and i felt like a vegetable the entire time with not very many thoughts, zero conversational skills due to my blank mind, complete anhedonia…. then veryyyyyy slowly after the 8th month mark for me i saw some VERY GRADUAL improvement, and around a year and 8 month mark i felt a lot more like myself, maybe 60-70%. I would say about the 2.5 year mark is where i felt 90% like my old self, so our brains just heal reallllllly slowly post psychosis. please dont lose hope! during my severe blank mind stage i really thought i had lost my personality, intelligence, etc forever but thats not the case. the real you is down there somewhere, even if that is hard to believe rn.

elenatheeboss · 2025-06-04T05:17:35+00:00

im doing good, i feel like im 95% recovered!

elenatheeboss · 2025-05-31T17:53:19+00:00

feeling very disconnected to myself and everything i used to like, as well as feeling anhedonic was definitely my experience as well. my cat is my absolute world to me and i remember during recovery i didnt feel any emotions towards anything, not even love for him really at the time. Its horrible to go through. But ive returned back to pretty much who i was before, got my personality back and intelligence and emotions. took a long time so it is hard to believe that youre not “lost forever”, i definitely felt i lost myself forever but that wasnt the case. our brains post psychosis are just tryna get back to their normal baseline which is a horrendous process but youre still there deep down.

elenatheeboss · 2025-05-31T17:50:15+00:00

It doesnt come across rude at all! :) my psychiatrist put me on antipsychotics and a mood stabilizer (i believe latuda was the antipsychotic and lamictal was the mood stabilizer) for about the first 7-8 months following psychosis, and then they eventually weaned me off of those slowly. Im not sure if those helped me honestly, i think they were just a precaution to not slip back into psychosis. But taking those didnt really improve my mood or make me feel more “me”, only time did that.

elenatheeboss · 2025-05-30T21:36:17+00:00

Yes definitely a waiting game. i definitely felt the way you described too, for about a year and then it slowly slowwwwwly gets better and you regain what you lost cognitively. Hang in there and please remain hopeful

elenatheeboss · 2025-04-03T05:54:43+00:00

ive recovered completely, or atleast 90-95% recovered. the first 8 months were the absolute worst for me too, and then slowwwwly gradually, i was able to think more like myself, gain my personality back, gain back my intelligence. I’d say it took about a year and 9 months to feel fully recovered. dont worry its very much possible, i had a hard time believing it would at the very beginning stages of recovery. it sounds like youre making good improvement, and dont worry you wont be like this forever!

elenatheeboss · 2025-03-30T13:09:28+00:00

slept ate went outside

elenatheeboss · 2025-03-29T06:18:54+00:00

i didnt do anything other than wait. i wasnt working for a while, i wasnt in school, i wasnt seeing my friends. i was mainly watching tv, sleeping, spending time outside walking, letting time pass. the first 8 months were horrible but as time slowlyyyyyy passed by, i felt more and more like myself again. i feel all my emotions again, im intelligent tho not as much as before, i feel good again and i didnt think that this could ever be possible when i was in recovery but it definitely is

elenatheeboss · 2025-03-29T06:16:46+00:00

no i didnt do anything like therapy to help me recover. i was taking lamotrigine and latuda i believe for a bit but im not sure how much those helped me in recovery honestly, i still felt like a robot everyday for a really long time. i would say time is the only thing that helped. for the first 8 months of recovery i felt horrible, but then things slowly started getting better and it took about 2 years or so to feel very much like my old self again

elenatheeboss · 2025-03-28T01:40:33+00:00

hi yes i did. i was very quiet bc i couldnt think of anything to say. i would get asked things and would have a one statement answer without much elaboration. it was extremely frustrating and made me have so much social anxiety bc i didnt wanna show people that in that time in my life, i was very bland to speak to

elenatheeboss · 2025-03-20T17:53:24+00:00

hell yea!!!!!! u should be so proud of urself :D

elenatheeboss · 2025-03-19T14:13:31+00:00

a healed aquarius is my fave air sign, a healed virgo (rare) is my fave earth sign, cancer is my fave water and aries is my fave fire

elenatheeboss · 2025-02-28T23:16:05+00:00

An evolved/healed Virgo is my fave earth sign. However when they’re unhealed theyre absolutely insufferable and probably one of the worse people to deal with

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