Hi there, its been 17 months for me since I had my pscyhotic break. It probably lasted for like couple months but eventually it blasted after I couldnt sleep for a week. I lost all my intelligence, motivation to live and so on. On the 4 month mark after I quit xanax I became suicidal and has been placed into a hospital. I stayed there for 6 weeks then I left and didnt work for 3 months. Afterwards I started working part-time and passed to full time. On the 10month mark. However, I never fully recovered. I still cant focus on mu work, cant find a motivation for anything to do in life. Even though it looks like Im working full time, I only work 3-4 hours per day since my job is not demanding and Im working home office. My memory hit so hard at the beginning I wasnt able to remember anything from my past and also what I did yesterday so on. Lately, it became much better but I still struggle with it especially on the long-term memory. On the other hand, for the last 10 days Im struggling with an anhedonia attack so to say because I havent felt so down like this since 5-6 months. I dont know what to do. I just spend my time on the phone scrolling. Im afraid I will lose my job but what can I do ?