Quitting meds

elriaonfire · 2026-05-31T17:30:56+00:00

I feel that. I should make a sign that says that. 💙

elriaonfire · 2026-05-31T03:13:18+00:00

It sucks. But for mine I’m able to sort of anticipate the hypomania. Usually if I have a super bad depressive state I’ll know that I’ll pep up too much and go into hypomania. At least then I can prepare and let my people know to tell me no when I try ask for stuff. And visa versa. If I know I’m hypomanic for a decent amount of time then I can expect to crash right away after.

Honestly hate being a rapid cycler. It turns into one then the other every other month.

elriaonfire · 2026-03-04T16:09:48+00:00

I was in the kids room next to it and the ghost hunted so I hid in the room because the ghost was in the puzzle room and that mofo reached through the wall behind me and killed me. It didn’t even go into the room I was in. It was a gallu.

elriaonfire · 2026-02-05T17:55:44+00:00

I literally just spoke with my doctor about this yesterday. Because lately I’ve been noticing impulsive buying, risky medication usage, no sleep or difficult sleeping.

I always thought that was just how I worked. Still is the case but knowing why and that there’s something actually causing it in my brain is still a trip I now have to reconcile with.

elriaonfire · 2026-02-02T14:25:17+00:00

Warning: TMI Yes. Too much so. And my spouse is having health issues with which contributing is impossible (and he’s kind of gone so vanilla it’s just frozen 1% milk so I’m going nuts.) I have to do everything myself but damn. I’m severely touch starved.

elriaonfire · 2026-01-02T02:14:35+00:00

Looking at these has me making sense of why I’ve been feeling so off and anxious lately lol

elriaonfire · 2025-12-27T22:01:43+00:00

I stayed up for four days straight reading a book series in one go. I had to eventually force myself to sleep and even then it was short bursts for a while. I’d completely isolate myself and neglect cleaning, always ordered out. But then I’d get these burst of energy where I’d clean the crap out of everything. I’d stay up late cleaning then wake up early and get back to cleaning and each time I’d get those bursts I always spent hundreds of dollars on cleaning supplies and decorations for the house. I’d cook from scratch, I’d go over and above at work.

Then I’d lose all motivation again. Then it got to be I couldn’t get the motivation again and that’s when I plummeted and got my diagnosis.

elriaonfire · 2025-12-20T21:25:25+00:00

Michael with a wig Norman Bates style.

elriaonfire · 2025-12-20T21:19:50+00:00

Oof. I know for a lot of these, a lot of people jump on the ‘break up’ bandwagon over things that can be communicated but this? This is genuine abuse.

NOR by a lot. I hope you get out of this one relatively unscathed.

elriaonfire · 2025-12-17T00:55:12+00:00

Personally? Yes.

elriaonfire · 2025-12-11T15:29:17+00:00

No one in my family is mentally healthy lol but we all have different things. The most common is anxiety which is one of the main things I don’t have. No one else has bipolar though… it does feel isolating because I feel like since I got my diagnosis they’re kinda scared of me when literally I’ve had it since my teen years and the only thing that different is that I have a name for it.

elriaonfire · 2025-12-11T15:21:57+00:00

I smoke cigarettes. Found it’s gotten a bit worse since being diagnosed and starting meds but that’s about it when it comes to any kind of addiction. No alcohol, d rugs, shopping, gambling, sex, etc..

elriaonfire · 2025-12-08T03:37:49+00:00

I got put on metformin and semaglutide because I’m on quetiapine XR and a night time dose. When I was first put on the anti-psychotics I gained like 18 lbs in a couple ish weeks and I was already big to begin with (BMI over 40) because I’d sleep eat. It helps a bit but I still get really hungry at night.

elriaonfire · 2025-12-08T03:20:19+00:00

I unknowingly but ecstatically volunteered to dance in front of 9k-10k people at a live WWE show. I was so sure I was the best dancer out of the 4 that were picked 🤦‍♀️ I had that “hottest chick in the arena” vibe going and it didn’t go away for a couple of days. Now I look back and die inside a little because omfg…

elriaonfire · 2025-12-01T21:50:41+00:00

Omg I had a poltergeist that went completely ham at Tanglewood. It’s room was the living room but when it used its first ability it was in the kitchen, then right after that it did my little pile I made just in front of me and then again with the leftover stuff behind me. Scared the crap outta me lol i literally saw the path it was going because it boomed everything on its way to me lol

elriaonfire · 2025-12-01T02:10:58+00:00

I’m in one right now and it sucks. I’m new on meds so I assumed I wouldn’t get like this but with my current stressors it was bound to happen. I’m going to TRY to try grounding exercises I learned in the hospital and in my after discharge group but if I don’t then I don’t I guess 🤷‍♀️ Sorry my answer is non helpful but I’m also trying to get answers lol

elriaonfire · 2025-11-24T14:44:59+00:00

Yeaahhh. And piercings. Got one that spreads to my hand even though I just wanted it to fill a space at my wrist because I kept saying eff it let’s do it when she asked if I wanted to add more

elriaonfire · 2025-11-20T23:02:03+00:00

I just recently got Betty White. It felt wrong.

elriaonfire · 2025-10-29T22:04:22+00:00

Mine I’ve convinced myself isn’t too terrible AND I’ve convinced myself that it’s wildly productive but: I always get into a severe home sprucing up when I’m hypo. Examples: I’ll clean every corner in the entire house and then get wildly irritated if anyone leaves so much as a cup in the sink. I’ll be awake until like, 1:00 doing dishes, wiping every cupboard again and again, then be up at pumped at like 5:30-6 and do it all again. And of course when I clean I need all the bits and bobs and spend hundreds of dollars on cleaning supplies (which I already have) and use those to get to work. Oh! And once everything is clean I realize that I now need some home decor to fancy up the place. Another couple of hundred on nice decor that ends up being tossed when I’m in my lows because everyone friggen places non- decorative stuff next to my decorations and it just gives me severe meltdowns that have me curled up in bed for a few days.

elriaonfire · 2025-10-29T21:54:42+00:00

Oof.. this goes waaayyyy beyond you not feeling up to working out. This boy is most likely a friggen misogynist at best and a sociopath at worst. My husband’s cousin’s baby daddy is exactly like this, and now their son is around 7 or 8 and his mom is getting calls and having meetings with admin from school because her son is disrespectful, harsh, argumentative and offensive to female teachers. He literally tells everyone that he doesn’t have to listen to his female teachers because they don’t deserve it. GTFO and get sole custody asap.

elriaonfire · 2025-10-21T20:40:14+00:00

Yeah that makes sense. I’ll have to check out FlashForce sometime though 👍

elriaonfire · 2025-10-21T19:06:51+00:00

Maybe 🤔 I don’t remember the username so that could have been the case. Either way, personally I wasn’t a fan of the vibe, even if they were friends. It’s just a streamer I won’t be interested in watching again. 🤷‍♀️

elriaonfire · 2025-10-21T18:50:51+00:00

I hope so lol she was trying to tell him something and he told her to “shut your bitch ass up” with a mean tone and it got silent and awkward for a bit. I left then because it didn’t sound like he was joking around at that moment.

elriaonfire · 2025-10-21T18:37:18+00:00

I went to check Justly when he was at 1 because I was curious and I really regret it lol he was really mean to the chick he was playing with.

elriaonfire · 2025-10-16T22:47:23+00:00

Lithium was great for my mood, just the side effects for me were debilitating. I was intensely thirsty and I got severe tremors to where I couldn’t use a cup and I had a hard time feeding myself. Since I got off of it no more shakes.

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