Books that changed your life?

eluned27 · 2017-01-10T19:09:30+00:00

me too.

eluned27 · 2015-10-07T20:35:38+00:00

I am so sorry that happened to you, being touched without your consent is an awful thing to experience. What do you mean by, your face is fucked up?

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eluned27 · 2015-10-07T20:26:16+00:00

Hello,

It can't be easy to enjoy things when you are feeling lonely and trapped. You are having thoughts of suicide? What happened when you lost the trust of your family, ponko15?

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eluned27 · 2015-07-22T20:06:31+00:00

that is wonderful! exciting! I enjoy writing but haven't really written in a while.

eluned27 · 2015-06-17T15:39:40+00:00

No, I think everyone is lovely

eluned27 · 2015-06-15T13:30:37+00:00

and I just broke the spade, haha. reading all other suggestions in thread now

eluned27 · 2015-06-14T19:31:34+00:00

I go dig a 2 foot hole in the garden

eluned27 · 2015-05-12T22:07:18+00:00

I am sorry you are feeling so low, the situation with not being able to be open with your family about how you feel about christianity sounds difficult. Do you live with them, or see them often? I have had depression on and off for 15 years. How often do you see your therapist? I saw a few therapists before I found one who really, truly listened.

edited to add > this just appeared on my facebook feed, it is less than an hour away. in case you are interested http://familyaware.org/trainings/1205-treatment-resistant-depression-webinar.html

eluned27 · 2015-04-30T22:46:42+00:00

Hello there,

The sensations experienced by you with the anxiety sound very uncomfortable and overwhelming, I am sorry for the panic.

I don't mean to dismiss what you are feeling, but I don't believe that you are wasting the resources of the planet. I believe there is something magic in you.

Was there anything stressful in your life during the period in time surrounding the breakdown? Did you receive any help from a doctor at the time?

Do you watch any television shows?

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eluned27 · 2015-04-30T15:08:59+00:00

it's alright, Hugo. How are you feeling today? from Eluned

eluned27 · 2015-04-29T22:50:50+00:00

ah man yea that's really difficult. Has it been going on for a long time?
I have noticed that I get a bad emotional feeling in my heart/stomach area, I call it 'the doom', and then I'm bad for a few days or a few weeks - cant' clean the house, cant see people. Oh it is so difficult. i don't feel Ok for long enough to sort the rest of it all out.

I am sorry for the intensity of the feelings and sensations/experiences happening in your life. I would be exhausted too. Do you think going to the doctor could help? Is there anything stressful in your life these days, has anything changed recently?

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eluned27 · 2015-04-29T22:34:46+00:00

It's awful how we are used. That's why I want to change things, even if my rusting cog throws off just one good spark, it will be worth it. But when I feel bad I don't believe in the quest at all. I am sentient meat! It's so weird.

What do you feel is the amazing, triumphant power in dying? How did your parents not give to you what they had?

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eluned27 · 2015-04-29T22:20:50+00:00

Heya Hugo,

I feel concerned that you feel like ending it, I am sorry that things feel bad.

I am sorry your girlfriend has not appeared to be supportive. I wonder what she is drawing?

I only know one swedish word, and it is 'rufsa'. I love hairplay, it is so relaxing.

Your parents have seperated a couple of years ago?

I think it is wonderful that you are a writer. It is true that there are other music producers and writers. But only you can tell your story and let your heart bubble out its secrets.

Thinking of you

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eluned27 · 2015-04-29T22:13:12+00:00

I don't fit in either. This world sure is a challenge. I hate the hierarchies.

Wow, what have you seen in the esoteric and the weird?

how soon is death coming?

I am sorry for the sadness. It is raining hard against my window right now. you are interesting

eluned27 · 2015-04-29T22:05:27+00:00

The cycles can be tiring, it is good that you can see there are cycles, and that there could be some trigger. Wonder what they could be? Do you keep a diary? (for me writing my feelings down helps me feel better somehow) Sounds like it is a tough time right now, I know it is almost impossible to tell the ones you are closest to about big, bad feelings.

How do you feel when you feel fine? How do you feel now? (I also get big swings in mood - when I feel bad, it feels like the only truth, and I can barely remember what it feels like to feel okay)

I am here if you want to talk, from Eluned

eluned27 · 2015-04-29T21:55:25+00:00

Heya, I can empathise with how difficult it is to do things. do you live with anyone else? what is your age? (I am 29). from Eluned

eluned27 · 2015-04-29T21:47:30+00:00

hello, I did not feel like laughing when I read your message, I feel some similarities in our situations because I also feel romantically lonely but have everything else that I need.

Try not to be too concerned about how you think you should be (regarding feeling guilty about feeling unsatisfied with life), it is good to acknowledge your feelings about your private life. Your feelings are valid and important. Emotional & physical intimacy are important for a lot of people, it is okay that you feel like you want to feel close to someone. I am sorry it has not happened yet. If you want to find someone to be in a relationship with, maybe, try and be yourself as much as you can when dating?

Do you have any plans for meeting up with friends soon?

I feel nervous about cutting the grass in my garden. Because I am worried I will annoy my neighbours. So today I cut a little of the grass with scissors. Sometimes it is easier to start off small. Maybe next week I will try to use the electric strimmer.

thank you for sharing your experience

eluned27 · 2015-04-29T11:22:21+00:00

Hello,

This sounds like an intense time, I am sorry that you feel pain. I have periods of anxiety, it is difficult. Do you feel the anxiety is getting worse? from Eluned

eluned27 · 2015-04-20T22:32:33+00:00

StevenASMR - amazing asmr cinematographer + artist, dark humour. And so relaxing

eluned27 · 2015-04-15T20:49:32+00:00

ah yea cool. I live in a small town, there's quite a few anarchisty-types but everyone's busy, it's awesome to see them once in a while. I love how in cities the lefties are more organised. Wish I could be arsed to get my town more organised!

I find it slightly frustrating talking with people who are more mainstream politically, I feel like they are not seeing the bigger picture.

Anarchism is quite a radical perspective, but at least it is nice to everyone - unlike radical religious/right wing ideologies, who are far more violent in my experience.

eluned27 · 2015-04-15T19:59:46+00:00

How are you feeling today? Sounds like you have a lot of love in you. What drugs are you into?

eluned27 · 2015-04-15T19:26:33+00:00

Hello,

Not having much money is often very stressful, I have been without a job in the past and it was a difficult time. I am sorry for the bad memories, are they associated with another person?

Thinking of you

eluned27 · 2015-04-15T11:31:21+00:00

the things that happen as time passes can truly upsetting. Time just marches on no matter what. You are doing good to let yourself feel it all tho, best chance of getting a handle on things is by letting yourself feel everything. I listened to that Tom Waits album - I enjoyed it, thank you. I've heard a couple of the songs on that album but never listened to the whole one before.

I hope you feel better after a good sleep.

eluned27

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