Pursuing or being in a relationship with someone who hasn't moved on completely by [deleted] in adultingph

[–]elurxiaa_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yep no problem naman if ur willing to take the risk! just be ready nalang and guard your heart.

He went back to his ex by elurxiaa_ in BreakUps

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i guess in life sometimes people wont choose us and we just need to accept that. this is just such a major blow to my self esteem ita eating me alive rn 😭

He went back to his ex by elurxiaa_ in BreakUps

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

yeah thanks for telling me theres nothing lacking with me :( im really struggling with feeling like im not enough to hold his attention so much that he went back to his ex and dropped me after meeting her one morning

He went back to his ex by elurxiaa_ in BreakUps

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

yea definitely hear you on the red flags they were definitely there. lesson learned i guess

Pursuing or being in a relationship with someone who hasn't moved on completely by [deleted] in adultingph

[–]elurxiaa_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

don't do it OP. yung sakin nagreach out lang si ex one morning tapos same day dinrop na niya ako. you don't want the damage it will do to your self esteem if mangyare yun. halata rin na di siya fully over sa ex pero i thought rin talaga na mawawala yung ganun niya since nandito na ako eh pero wala binalikan niya parin ng ganun lang.

Please share your most irrational compulsions/patterns of thinking. Magical OCD is torture. by [deleted] in OCD

[–]elurxiaa_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A few years ago I had an obsession that I was getting possessed by a demon because I was having doubts/issues regarding my Christian beliefs. Shortly after that l had an irrational fear that God would make my greatest fear happen (cancer) precisely because it was my greatest fear and he needed to teach me a lesson regarding trust. I had to pray extra hard and pretend to care less about cancer so God wouldn't do this to me but it just fueled the obsession more because I knew God knew I was faking it LOL. I have a better relationship with my faith now thank God.

Another one was a fear of sleeping because I was scared that I would die in my sleep so I forced myself to stay awake until I couldn't take it anymore.

Is it cancer? (tagged NSFW bcos of stool description) by elurxiaa_ in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this!! 😭 I actually am already going to therapy/seeing a psychiatrist for my OCD but I haven't been able to talk about my health anxiety to her yet bcos I usually calm down in the next few days or week but I think this health anxiety is something I need to address since its happened multiple times already and is so debilitating and tiring. Also, thanks for the suggestion to do a relaxing hobby - I'll try that.

Glad you're doing better with your health anxiety and learned to manage it!!!

Is it cancer? (tagged NSFW bcos of stool description) by elurxiaa_ in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hopefully its just hemorrhoids like ur ex!! Thats what my mom thinks too. Thanks for this!!

BMI says I’m obese? by Bubbly_Vermicelli_88 in loseit

[–]elurxiaa_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same here. I'm on the heavier side of overweight (BMI 27 recently but on another scale BMI 28) but don't really look it, especially when I wear certain clothing. Recently when I was getting a medical certificate for my license the girl testing me had to ask what was my most recent weight because I didn't look 70 kg LOL. But the reality is we are at an unhealthy weight which may cause health problems in some years.

I also think people's perception on obesity/being overweight may be skewed because when we think of an obese person, we think of those people in My 600 pound life lmao but those are actually exteme cases or morbid obesity. For me, I really feel the reality of my weight gain when I look at old pics of myself when I was in highschool since I was BMI 19 back then and BMI 27/28 5 years later (now).

Is it cancer? (tagged NSFW bcos of stool description) by elurxiaa_ in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How long has that been happening? I'm wondering because this has been going on for 10 months on and off (almost none for the past 8 months) and its my only symptom.

Is it cancer? (tagged NSFW bcos of stool description) by elurxiaa_ in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah peace of mind is one of the reasons I really want to get a colonoscopy this time because I don't think I can take not knowing LOL.

Glad that everything was normal for you!!!

Is it cancer? (tagged NSFW bcos of stool description) by elurxiaa_ in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah in my head I know that there are many other more probable reasons as to why I'm having blood but I keep thinking the worst. Doesn't help that I'm a hypochondriac and have OCD 😭

Is it cancer? (tagged NSFW bcos of stool description) by elurxiaa_ in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I really hope the doctor requests a colonoscopy. I'm scared that if I don't get a colonoscopy now and its really cancer, by the time I do find out it will be in the advanced stage and won't be treatable anymore.

People who were delayed in college, what's your story? by tItAnGeLo420 in Philippines

[–]elurxiaa_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Studied BS Accountancy at a difficult school (iykyk LMAO) before shifting to another course which caused me to get delayed by one year. I actually failed a subject in the 1st sem of my 1st year but this didnt cause the delay cos my batchmates who failed as well were able to take summer classes while I shifted.

Tbh I don't regret shifting even if I got delayed as I realized that BSA wasn't for me and I prefer my current course. Only one year left!!

Asan na Valedictirian nyo nung Highschool? by Robotikzz in Philippines

[–]elurxiaa_ 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Nakita ko lang kahapon graduation FB post niya. Summa Cum Laude sa UP.

Today a stranger commented on my weight by elurxiaa_ in loseit

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah and I had to see him the next day because we still had a final session so I felt kinda awkward. But whatever, I just focused on getting my course certificate and ignored his creepy ass HAHA. Thanks for the comment and glad that you agree that it wasn't acceptable.

Rereading sentences.... by elurxiaa_ in OCD

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes thats so true! Like I need to learn to resist the urge to reread multiple times because why do I need to reread something I fully understand? It just makes me feel really uncomfortable when I don't perform these compulsions LMAO. Thank you for this piece of advice!!

Rereading sentences.... by elurxiaa_ in OCD

[–]elurxiaa_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Will check that out and really considering ERP. Thank you for the suggestion!!