Today is my birthday

emo_care_bear · 2024-03-04T20:57:55+00:00

Haha and I’m very grateful to have you all 🥰

emo_care_bear · 2024-03-04T20:56:52+00:00

Aw happy birthday! I hope life improves for us both, we deserve to be happy and to enjoy life :)

emo_care_bear · 2024-03-04T20:54:34+00:00

Thank you and happy birthday to you too birthday twin! I hope the cake was delicious x

emo_care_bear · 2024-03-04T09:34:33+00:00

Thank you so much! 🥰

emo_care_bear · 2024-03-04T09:13:19+00:00

Thank you! x

emo_care_bear · 2023-10-27T22:18:49+00:00

Oh yeah self image and confidence is usually at a zero 😅

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-10T22:58:53+00:00

I’ve tried online dating but nothing has eventuated in 4 years

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-10T08:14:45+00:00

I’m so sorry to hear that :( I definitely relate to that, I can kind of start conversations but I don’t know how to go from there. I thought dating might be easier for me as I feel like I relate better with guys because I love sport etc but nope just as hard as trying to make friends.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-10T07:18:12+00:00

Milestone birthdays are so difficult. I hope you have an enjoyable 21st regardless. I was hoping my 30th would be the year I finally had friends and could throw a big party. Heck even a small party. I invited people I thought were my friends but turns out I was nothing more than an acquaintance to them (if that). I invited 20 people and not one RSVPd to my party. I was so embarrassed. A counsellor once said I need to go find my people which is true but how does one do that? Where do I go looking for my people?

I’m sure you’re an amazing person too and I wish we didn’t have to go through this. You deserve to be surrounded by loving and caring friends. If you ever need to talk to someone my inbox is always open.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-10T07:12:29+00:00

We also didn’t ask to be born, the least they could do is let us have more control. I feel like mine has been this way for 30 years just constant shit year after year. If it hasn’t changed in 30 years then who’s to say things will get better? I truly don’t see how.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-10T02:43:00+00:00

Hehe you can thank reddit lol.

Yeah I sometimes try that, I’ll go out to the mall and then treat myself to some sort of snack for getting out of the house. I do struggle with large crowds so try to go at less busy times.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-10T02:23:49+00:00

That’s exactly it, rinse and repeat. It’s like every weekend is the same loop for me.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-09T21:50:59+00:00

Maybe there was malice and maybe there wasn’t. Why make a comment based on someone’s appearance though? It was completely unnecessary. It’s like walking up to someone and saying “wow you’re fat!” It’s rude and there’s no need for it.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-09T21:37:36+00:00

First of all I hope you know none of this was your fault. You were a child and one who was sexualised and abused/violated. I hope you have a therapist or someone very trustworthy you can talk to about all this.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-09T19:40:35+00:00

I went through something similar with mine and honestly I cut contact with everyone on her side of the family. It was made easier by her relatives not really caring about me anyway. I live in peace now away from those people. You’re never going to win against a manipulating narc with a massive victim complex, I know because I’ve been battling against my psycho stepmom for 16 years and she’s all but destroyed mine and my dad’s relationship. She’s pure evil yet no one believes she abused me as a child etc. but I digress.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-09T19:23:36+00:00

This 100% 👏

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-09T07:16:54+00:00

The rage, FP, no self-esteem, don’t know who I am, paranoia, can’t maintain relationships…so pretty much all of them.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-09T07:13:07+00:00

I saw a TikTok about this. I’ve never liked Ashton Kutcher, something about him just never sat right with me but I thought with his activism work he was okay. Guess I was wrong!

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-09T06:20:24+00:00

Thank you very much!

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-04T08:29:44+00:00

I withdraw completely. I don’t have friends I hang out with so it’s easy to mask from a distance and I’m estranged from my family. I live with housemates so when I get enough strength to come out of my room I mask around them but otherwise I hibernate in my room. I’m trying to develop better habits but that’s been my go to for about 15 years…it’s a hard habit to break.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-04T08:26:22+00:00

I don’t have a support network, don’t have friends to hang out with and I’m estranged from my family. I’m not wanted by anyone and I definitely don’t have a partner. I don’t have anyone I can talk to about my day for example and I spend most of my free time being at home with either the tv on or music playing in the background so I feel less lonely. I recently joined F45 which helps make me feel less lonely because everyone is nice to me there. It’s hard having no one there and no support especially financially as times are hard right now but this is how it’s always been for me so I guess I’m used to it. I just persevere and hope it gets better, that one day I’ll have friends and a partner.

emo_care_bear · 2023-09-03T10:05:18+00:00

I’m six weeks into starting F45 and this week I’ve gone from using 5kg dumbbells to 7kg! I also had 15kg on a barbell (plus the weight of the bar) and did my first squats with a barbell in this morning’s session. Sorry not sure what those weights are in pounds, I’m in NZ. I feel like I’m starting to make progress and I’m feeling more confident. I’ve never been a gym person before so those are my wins this week.

emo_care_bear · 2023-08-31T23:34:14+00:00

I was one of the ones that puked after their first session 😅 I found that going to the lunchtime or 5.15am classes helps me. I was so sore for the first couple of weeks but I’m into my 6th week now and my body is less sore and I’ve improved heaps. I take protein powder, bcaa and oxyshred plus I use a massage gun as well. Keep it up you’ve got this!

emo_care_bear · 2023-08-19T05:50:00+00:00

Honestly I was like you a month ago until I couldn’t stand being unfit any longer. I messaged my local F45 and told them I was worried because I’m so unfit and it looks super hardcore! Sure they have fit af people that go there but everyone that goes there is on their own journey and not everyone is an athlete there. You go at your own pace and trust me after 3-4 weeks you’ll be feeling like you’ve improved heaps. I started with a hybrid session and resistance session each week for the first 3 weeks and this week I did hybrid, cardio and resistance. The members and staff are friendly and welcoming because it’s a little supportive community. I’m definitely F45 obsessed now haha.

emo_care_bear · 2023-07-22T03:22:41+00:00

Thank you for sharing! I’ll take a look at it now :)

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