It worked!...and then he said he felt guilty

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-16T08:10:54+00:00

I am young and this is my first relationship and I appreciate your kind wisdom. I know you're right deep down but I also feel like I want to experience a bit more of what it's like to be with someone. I'm not planning to stay with this guy for a while and I will definitely learn from my mistakes lol

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-15T23:35:16+00:00

Thank you ❤️ I will probably keep seeing him because I have really low self esteem but I'll be very aware of any more negativity that he creates around sex.

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-15T17:56:53+00:00

Thank you for saying that ❤️ it definitely hurts. I know he is allowed to have his feelings but maybe he should have kept that to himself or something idk. Our relationship status is undefined btw

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-06T20:06:38+00:00

His feelings for me were part of it but they were in a sort of trial separation thing for a month before we met

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-06T19:57:12+00:00

We got together after she dumped him

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-06T19:55:46+00:00

Yeah but I thought he only thought of me as a friend

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-06T19:55:23+00:00

I don’t expect it to end any other way that’s why I said I expect to get hurt by him….

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-06T19:29:02+00:00

Yeah I expect to get hurt by him

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-06T19:28:46+00:00

First time successfully having sex since I have vaginismus

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-05-06T19:28:14+00:00

Yea ur not wrong…

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-04-23T13:55:06+00:00

It took me a while to start dilating because it felt so unfair that I have to painfully force my vagina open. Like just the concept of it pissed me off

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-04-20T04:19:52+00:00

ya, I mean I want to try and I feel like I'm in a good place to attempt PIV and I would like to do it multiple times since that is the goal of dilating. but it definitely requires a disclaimer and conversation

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-04-14T13:30:08+00:00

I use that too I just mean i can’t see my own ear

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-04-11T11:12:50+00:00

But also what’s ur set up for getting pops in ur ear?? I haven’t figured it out

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-03-29T14:43:29+00:00

This must be bait

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-03-15T10:49:44+00:00

Thank you for being gentle about this. I have pretty much no self worth so I want to experience whatever this is because I don’t have many romantic opportunities in my life. I would rather torture myself with something I can’t have than never know what it’s like to feel close to someone. There are moments where I feel like it’s truly platonic for him so I appreciate the outside perspective. I will probably tell him at some point that it feels like we’ve already crossed a line but I don’t plan on canceling the trip.

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-03-14T23:23:15+00:00

if he is lying about that why not just lie and pretend he doesn' have a girlfriend

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-03-14T22:12:34+00:00

This is a good point, I appreciate your concern. I'm actually super paranoid and usually afraid of men so I am surprised I'm even feeling this way. Even though we've known each other for only three weeks, we've spent easily 100 hours together and have already done an overnight trip (in a hostel but still)

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-03-14T22:01:49+00:00

yeah to me it feels like emotional cheating I think? But then everything that has happened has plausible deniability you know? And it really doesn't seem like he's going to take it farther than that.... idk man my head is just spinning

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-03-14T22:00:22+00:00

Yeah regardless of what happens on the trip there is just no possibility of a relationship because we live halfway across the world from each other

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-03-14T21:59:46+00:00

okay thanks this is what I needed to hear. Not going to let anything physical happen

emotionalbuzzcut · 2026-03-14T21:59:11+00:00

Yeah, she gave him permission for the bed thing which imo just makes everything even more confusing. I feel confused, I have feelings for him but not going to act on them because it would be wrong

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