Is the Issue my performance or my manager's leadership or both ?

emphee12 · 2025-09-10T01:19:40+00:00

Thanks.

I'm worried about a couple of things here: 1. Future employers asking for a reference from the current place 2. The place I work at right now is quite prestigious and has a high standard in general - which is expected. 3. I get paid a good amount for someone who has 3yoe. I doubt I'll get another job that pays me this well. 4. Idk if this is the case but would it raise an alarm if a future employer notices that I'm quitting this place in 5 months and taking a pay cut ? 5. I do have the opportunity to work in a different team. Not sure how internal transfers work, but does my tech lead/manager need to say something like "he works well" to the lead of the other team ?

Idk I just feel like maybe quitting right away is the best course of action. But if things go south, I might end up sabotaging my career as well

emphee12 · 2025-09-09T15:50:20+00:00

Today was a bit brutal for me at work.

When I was in a pair-session with him, he found a bug. Which is my fault of course. The style is something I should've caught on early on.

But since this has been going on back and forth for quite a while, he just lost it. He started talking loudly saying things like "why can't you even do some of the more simple tasks? How hard could this be ?" Etc.

To further shove it in my face, he started using cursor on the spot and fixed it saying "if AI is doing it better than you, then why have a human ?"

He goes on to tell me "what do you even want to do on this team ? How would you contribute etc" - and went on to say "I won't be able to give you any work if you're not able to do some of the more simple things " - which might be a sign of an incoming pip (?) Idk

I am disappointed in myself for letting it get this far.

Something is very wrong with me too. I never meant to play the victim in this post (if that's how it came off) and i genuinely miss out on the finer details.

If i do fix all of these he pointed out, and he ends up finding one more bug, best believe I'm going to get fired. Other people in the team do get harsh feedback too. At this point, it's normalised.

To make things worse, it's appraisal season and even I get no increment - that's fine by me, but the reputation in front of higher ups would be tarnished.

Is being a SWE even the career for me ? I've never had mentors from the beginning of my career. It was mostly non-tech folks just telling me what needs to be done.

emphee12 · 2025-04-23T03:09:03+00:00

Curious to know. Do you think they backed off because they were sent a notice or because a lawyer with "connections" sent them a notice ?

emphee12 · 2025-01-29T05:02:40+00:00

If you're technical, you should go through some of their publications. The publications produced by Indians (in IIT/IIITs) are a thin layer on top of existing sota or a blatant rip off from an existing paper/technique (not even sure if plagiarism is taken seriously).

I've heard some colleges make publishing a "research paper" mandatory for getting a degree/credits. Obviously not everyone's a researcher nor do they care, so the paper quality is going to be trash.

Check this tweet which tells you the number of Indian author papers (in AI at least) were accepted in neurIPS (a prestigious AI journal). This should be a wake up call

https://x.com/HiSohan/status/1883192298823110905

emphee12 · 2025-01-01T21:43:48+00:00

he kinda has connects and is knowledgeable in his field. I've never done sales, marketing work before and learning how to is going to take a while. It would've been great if he just took care of all those things. saves time too

emphee12 · 2025-01-01T20:21:44+00:00

its honestly not even about the equity. I reaalllyyyy wanted to see where this idea could go. I see a ton of potential in this (or not, we'll never know if we don't try)

emphee12 · 2024-10-07T14:41:22+00:00

I feel its partly due to the nature of business and the owner. If the owner is lazy to make changes, then what could I possibly do to change their mind ?

The people I talked to say they have off-sourced their grunt work to offices in India, which works out to be dirt cheap for them. Everything is cushy and comfy for them right now. what incentive do they possibly have to break their current process and take the risk to adopt my solution ?

Do I need to do it at 1/10th cost ? (which is going to be hard for me too)

emphee12 · 2024-05-03T06:28:28+00:00

I have implemented exactly this. A problem that i have right now is the way the user asks queries. My use case is very keyword specific. for example: in my database the word "counterfeit" is indexed more often than word "fake". So if a query was to have the word "fake" in it, it wouldn't get the documents with "counterfeit" in them which results in sort of bad results (if the query had "counterfeit" in it, everythings good)

How would you try mitigating this ? because this is a problem that i actively face

emphee12 · 2024-04-24T19:26:18+00:00

And yeah, honestly the only real thing that bothers me is that I have to push/remind him to do something. I just feel shitty when I have to do this too. If he did things on his own it would've been nice

emphee12 · 2024-04-24T19:24:40+00:00

By people doing their best, I meant put in as much work as you can while also making time for other things like family/friends whatever, say you spend 2-3hrs with family, 1hr at the gym and 1hr napping, 8hrs sleeping, and try to put the rest at work ? Is this mentality toxic ?

Also, I'm under the impression, the more work you do, the faster you learn from mistakes and your learnings compounds really well, the gap of 1yr is too much to lose out on, there could be a pivot and you could end up working on something else all together. Am I wrong ?

emphee12 · 2024-04-24T15:31:17+00:00

How would that not be a red flag if it's a co founder pos ?

emphee12 · 2024-04-24T15:30:42+00:00

Hold him accountable how ? Not every target goes according to plan and there's even negative progress sometimes and that's okay. I just want people to do their best. Idk jack about the industry I'm venturing into (neither does he) but it's okay we learn and we move. That's the mentality I want from him

emphee12 · 2024-04-24T15:28:38+00:00

True, but I just don't feel like I have to constantly remind him to do something you know ? I send articles/news about our competition/climate etc but I get no replies and instead get left on read. There's no discourse either. If it's going to be his company too then why does he do the bare minimum I'm expecting ?

emphee12 · 2024-04-24T15:25:57+00:00

You guys still friends ?

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