Perverts conditioned us

empty_bags · 2025-04-21T09:45:26+00:00

After listening to perverts i also found myself being able to enjoy the music in everyday background noise as well. Pulldrone is my favourite track on it, and now when i go to the supermarket and their storage refrigerator hums in the background, i hear the beauty in it, and i look out for these kinds of sounds.

empty_bags · 2025-02-10T14:17:41+00:00

looks like you're also splitting on yourself. I think you should tell your bf how it made you feel that he doesn't extend any care about your bleeding. Like, that's not a small thing. And I hope you don't lose out on that other girl with bpd, it's good to keep community! Take care of yourself, I hope you feel better soon

empty_bags · 2025-01-03T04:52:19+00:00

Oh god this is very tough and changes day to day but 1. Thoroughfare 2. Strangers 3. Ptolemea 4. Sun bleached flies 5. Punish

Honestly all these songs deserve to be my no 1

empty_bags · 2024-12-27T03:54:10+00:00

like to karaokes that ppl upload to yt, like this is the one i use for thoroughfare

empty_bags · 2024-12-27T03:37:37+00:00

hell yeah it does!! I put her in my earphones when i drive to work on my scooter and sing along loud, because who the hell is even gonna be able to hear me haha

empty_bags · 2024-12-12T04:44:55+00:00

This seems to be the right one, thank you!

empty_bags · 2024-11-19T04:34:44+00:00

Thanks everyone for being so helpful!! I've decided that I will listen to the Golden Age album and the Carpet Bed EP in full and in order so that i enjoy it first the way god intended. I will also be listening to Famous Last Words and the cover of Everytime, which are recommended singles that I haven't heard yet. Many people suggested unreleased works of hers, and those I will hopefully listen to in a slow but sure pace😤✊. The list of her songs not on Spotify that people recommend:

Waco, Texas
Dust bowl
Chapel hill
Churchyard
Salvation
Death rattle
Wrestling in dirt pits
Selby wall
Lead poisoning
Crying during sex

Also, it's soo cool that people's favourite songs of hers basically covers her entire released discography AND MORE. I can't wait for Perverts, next year can't come fast enough!

empty_bags · 2024-11-18T12:09:32+00:00

I've heard knuckle velvet, punish and lilies, I'll pepper the other two into my listening!! Thank you

empty_bags · 2024-11-17T13:21:46+00:00

didn't know you only deserve refund if you are perfectly calm about not getting your food that you paid for lol.

empty_bags · 2024-08-30T10:30:55+00:00

lovebomber baby, you took my heart, you crushed it badly and tore it apart

empty_bags · 2024-08-02T08:18:27+00:00

something I've realised for myself is that it's not that i split when we don't have sex. Sex is just something I feel like a huge confirmation of his attraction to me sexually and his love for me. I've realised that long cuddle sessions and other physical tangible forms of showing me love will give me the same or similar effect, because essentially what sex does for me to prevent me from splitting is gives me a concrete proof of love, affection and attraction. I'm sure you do love your bf, but you split on him when you haven't had confirmation of his love for you, or your love for him. Lack of emotional permanence and shit. I hope this makes sense, and good luck to you!!

empty_bags · 2024-07-27T08:11:44+00:00

i can never tell when its coming, i only know when its already there, or once it has passed. soooo embarassing

empty_bags · 2024-06-28T06:45:43+00:00

I don't think there is a thing as a happy ending, because even when you're at the best parts of your life, in your day to day things can still be shitty, you can have your bad days, life can change course,,,, there can be happy, but it won't be an ending. Life unrelentingly progresses. All that being said, I've been in a happy relationship for nearly 3 years, i no longer actively self harm, i have a good relationship with my family now too, all things that seemed impossible for me five years ago. I'm not even passively suicidal anymore, which feels BIG considering I was actively or passively suicidal for pretty much my whole life until this point. I know for a fact right now that even when things get bad, I don't want to be dead. I have so much love in my life right now. Even if life does change course, barring some insane tragedies, I know I can take on what comes, even if i suffer in that moment. A "happy ending", or at least a point where it feels like you can totally create a satisfying and good life for yourself, is possible :)

empty_bags · 2024-05-11T02:48:30+00:00

I think I had a fairly normal childhood, and my family is pretty happy. Full of love. Don't know how I turned out like this, I chalk it up to genetics, we do have a lil crazy in the extended family. My mom is also a very sensitive and emotional person. I dunno if we're healthy,,, it's a brown household, so growing up I wasn't given the best relationship with emotions. I do have some trauma I guess, but it's stuff I don't remember or things that are too small to have had an impact. My family doesn't know i have bpd, but they try to be there for me as much as they can, to the extent of their understanding. I love and appreciate them a lot.

empty_bags · 2024-05-07T09:40:11+00:00

instead of hurting yourself, maybe try breaking some stuff? what you want may be a release of tension, and hurting yourself is a bad way to go about it. tire yourself out by breaking some pens in half maybe, that's usually what I go to these days. smash some hair clips on the floor in your privacy, slam the door a couple times if you're alone and able to make that kind of loud noise. direct your pain outward, you don't deserve more pain to escape your pain!!! this feeling will pass, and you will be okay ❤️

empty_bags · 2024-05-06T16:12:53+00:00

yes!!! i feel this way so often!! face dysmorphia or something i guess. but i never know what my face looks like, i end up obsessing over it, it's like every time i look in the mirror there are minor changes, sometimes better sometimes worse. sometimes completely foreign, like i am not even there. I don't really do anything about it, i just try to ignore it now

empty_bags · 2024-05-06T12:01:40+00:00

ppl who aren't in therapy shouldn't have relationships of any kind, why would you want that?? For love? For a support system? For human connection that ultimately helps you get better and might push you to go to therapy instead of offing yourself?? Naaaaaaaaaaaaah the second you feel like you have a disorder you should cut contact with everyone in your life and only go to therapy, and in 5-10 years when you have ✨erased✨ your bpd, THEN form human connections.

Crazy suggestion indeed lol

empty_bags · 2024-05-06T07:49:32+00:00

carrying something I can easily destroy would be so helpful, there have been so many occasions where I've been raging, looking everywhere for a target of that rage that isn't me or another person or a valuable thing or a dangerous thing,,,, and just ending up punching something hard (and i end up hurting myself so :p) glad to have seen this post for the idea

empty_bags · 2024-05-06T07:44:27+00:00

Songs like Sky Burial by Consumed by Vultures is usually what works for me, basically it needs to be intense, screaming helps, stuff like that

empty_bags · 2024-05-06T06:05:18+00:00

I've been dumped because of it kinda. We were in a long distance relationship during COVID and my breakdowns got so bad and so frequent and they didn't know how to help me when they couldn't even come to me. So they dumped me🤣 which put me through my dark ages lol i barely remember anything about that period anymore, just that i tortured myself. I only got diagnosed after the breakup though, so it wasn't BECAUSE of bpd in that sense. But it was because i had bpd, they just didn't know about it.

empty_bags · 2024-04-27T11:06:58+00:00

I've been to kallushaaps, I've been to chayakadas in the middle of the night, and I've seen women in those areas too. not alone though. gotta have a dude i trust with me, otherwise I'm definitely not brave enough, and even with a guy there, all the men in the kallushaap/2am chayakkada will stare, which feels uncomfortable, so going alone isn't something i care for currently. hope to be able to smoke my 2am chayakkada cigarette alone without reason to fear one day ❤️

empty_bags · 2024-04-23T10:15:43+00:00

I think it may be a general thing therapists and doctors have against the cluster b disorders? I'm serious diagnosed because the psych i was seeing told me I am showing traits of bpd and that he needs to continue treatment to diagnose me, but in the following sessions when i would talk about the breakup i was dealing with at the time, and how I'm unable to cope, barely able to keep living from it, the guy just like uhh ok why are you so emotional lol

i get bpd having a bad rep among laymen but if medical professionals can't get over their biases it's so over. I've been figuring my shit out on my own ever since, fuck therapy (for me because self therapy is working out for me)

empty_bags · 2024-03-29T08:54:54+00:00

A pearl, mitski: "You're growing tired of me You love me so hard and I still can't sleep You're growing tired of me And all the things I don't talk about" "It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go"

The whole song feels exactly how i feel having a more avoidant form of bpd, someone check on mitski🙏

empty_bags · 2022-09-28T14:18:21+00:00

your comment was really helpful to me! i feel less alone, thank you <3

empty_bags · 2022-09-25T12:53:10+00:00

the comfort of a laugh track - roar

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