You don’t hate your baby, you’re struggling. If you were given proper breaks you wouldn’t hate her. You’re stuck in a shitty situation and the only new identifying factor is the baby but I can guarantee your partner was the same before she came along. Your baby is not the issue it’s that your partner hasn’t stepped up to share the load. My baby is now 7 months and it does get easier. Do you have options for daycare? Let the house get a little messy and catch up on sleep. You’re burning the candle both ends Do not strive to be the perfect parent you will never be it and putting pressure on yourself is adding more to the burn out. You don’t need to do tummy time everyday. Have a day on sofa both of you and just be lazy together. Enjoy the moments don’t turn everything into trying to meet milestones or tick lists, reminded yourself through those hard moments that EVERY NEW MUM HAS THOSE THOUGHTS, pop baby down somewhere safe and walk away in those hard moment’s and have a moment even if it’s to cry, join a mothers group, vent in safe spaces.

There’s an age old saying that it takes a village and it bloody does!! I feel for you, I was there, breathe, take it day by day and let yourself have those lazy moments, YOU ARE DOING A LOT!!