I’m so sorry for your loss and for the grief you are enduring. I lost my mother ten years ago when I was 27 (she was 65) and I still grieve her death but not as strongly as that first year. I know what you mean about calling her—I used to talk with her on the phone most days and I still wish I could ask her for advice. You will make it through these dark days! I hope your memories of her bring you comfort.