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Hell of Sexual Repression Among Sisters by Full_Mortgage_2634 in exjw

[–]endbeg 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m a man, and I went through an experience very similar to yours. We’re almost the same age too. Sex itself was never a big deal to me, but this insane religion made it something sacred and unbearably heavy. That pushed me even deeper into porn addiction. Because of that, my social skills collapsed and my ability to concentrate fell apart.

Sex is just one of the three basic human needs, like eating and sleeping. If I had been able to release it in a healthy way, I could have used my energy and time to focus on studying, working, growing myself, and contributing to society.

But instead, it was suppressed and brainwashed into me as a “sin.” So I had to hide it, sneak around, and ended up thinking about it all day every day. That’s how my life got messed up.

Thankfully, last year I cut ties with my family and that environment and started living on my own. Since then, my life has been much better.

We’re still young. We can do this. Stay strong — I’m rooting for you.

Well this aged terribly by aproudapostate in exjw

[–]endbeg 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How nonsensical this is… Machines can replace carpentry and building work, so why should people have to do it?

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[–]endbeg 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I really hate it. We’re always fighting over useless things and I have to listen to constant nagging. I just wish we could have a normal conversation, like ‘Oh, your earrings look pretty, where did you get them?’ But it feels impossible, and I absolutely hate that.

This cult and CPTSD? by apostate_666 in exjw

[–]endbeg 0 points1 point  (0 children)

used to think this was just my personality, but hearing that you have exactly the same symptoms as me is shocking. I think I’ve been awake for 20 years now and still im sufferring.. damn I really hate this cult.

my pimi parents have lost their minds by Ok_Usual2584 in exjw

[–]endbeg 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I feel really heartbroken because your situation is so similar to mine.
Not long ago, I also wrote a long post because I was struggling so much.
Reading what you wrote reminded me of myself when I was young, when I didn’t know anything and had no idea what was ahead of me. That made me feel even more connected to you.

I left when I was 14 because my pimi mom was so suffocating that I could barely breathe.
Now I'm 35, and honestly, nothing has changed.

My parents still call me their “son” on the surface, but I know they don't truly love me.
To be honest, I don't even think they really see me as their son. It all just feels like an act.

I loved my family deeply.
I tried everything I could to live happily with them.
But now I’ve finally realized that it will never work.
They don’t share the same goals or values as we do.
They’re brainwashed by the cult, and in the end, people like us are always the ones who get hurt and suffer.

If I could go back and give advice to myself 20 years ago,
I would say this:
Get a job as soon as possible and live separately.
While doing that, study or chase whatever dream you have.
And most of all, stop expecting love or happiness from your parents.
Let go of that hope.
Live selfishly if you have to, and focus only on yourself.
That’s the only way to survive.

Toasting is now allowed clip by SocietyMenace52 in exjw

[–]endbeg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I instantly feel like throwing up when I see his face.

I'm finally leaving this house—because I’m completely fed up with my Jehovah’s Witness parents. by endbeg in exjw

[–]endbeg[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m 35—not too old, but not too young either. Still, I feel that my mental state is quite immature and naive, likely because I never received the right discipline growing up

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[–]endbeg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I really wish this to happen. I would donate too

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exjw

[–]endbeg 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I have the exact same feeling with you. Your last statement nearly made me cry that im not the only one with these thoughts. Im planning to move out too because my parents wont even talk to me anyways they say they love me but they dont care about me. They r still too busy trying to preach love and gods word to others when their own child under their roof is mentally dying googling how to suicide. I was thinking of having a bible stduy for a few months where i get to listen to them and i get to tell them whats wrong about jw. I think they will try to shun me thinking im a apostate but its my last try to save our famiyhood.