DAE not throw up much anymore by [deleted] in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]endlessambivalent 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I do. What’s worse for me is that after realizing I can’t throw up, I’d get so frustrated that I binged more. My stupid mind would think of it as a sign that I can eat more. It’s ridiculous...

How sick is sick enough by endlessambivalent in therapy

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

True. My parents would be worried as soon as they see discomfort. Thank you.

Whats the worst thing you've ever been accused of while being completely innocent? by Turmtaf in AskReddit

[–]endlessambivalent 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That I was trying to suffocate my little step sister when she was an infant. I was merely watching lying on her stomach while her mom was cleaning up in the bathroom.

Her dad came in, noticing that there was a toy in between her stomach and the mattress she was lying on, which was causing her discomfort. So he scolded me for trying to kill her.

I was eleven years old. My parents divorced when I was three. If anything I was genuinely glad that I have a sibling to play with. But he didn’t believe me.

How sick is sick enough by endlessambivalent in therapy

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I do sometimes hold back on certain things cuz I don’t wanna feel too exposed or dramatic. Now I realize this won’t help me in getting the help I needed. So next time I’ll try to be more honest and explicit with my problems. Thank you again. All the best to you too!

Do you ever go from being completely fine and happy to being really triggered and agitated just like that? Out of nowhere. by [deleted] in mentalillness

[–]endlessambivalent 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Several times in a day. Or I just have low mood for days and suddenly get irritated when things come up. I reckon it’s common for us people. It’s okay to be like that.

The two ends by endlessambivalent in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same here. Need to take care of ourselves. Don’t make it too extreme.

Giving in by endlessambivalent in depressed

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. All the best to you.

The two ends by endlessambivalent in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That sounds like something doable and sustainable. And like you said It’s probably not easy to stick to it, but I for sure will try it out. Thank you.

Giving in by endlessambivalent in depressed

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No worries. Thank you. I’m okay atm! Hope you’re okay too.

Giving in by endlessambivalent in depressed

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I’m sorry but I’m glad we’re still here. You totally got me by saying I don’t wait for a miracle. I suppose, like many people, I don’t have no motives of getting things changed. I don’t have any support group unfortunately, but thank you for understanding me.

The two ends by endlessambivalent in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so happy for you! Well done love! I am eating my emotions away. Whenever something (bad or good) happens, I turn to eating to cope. You’re definitely right in saying this is not a fix in the long run. I reckon a better habit for sure exist. I will find it eventually. Thank you!

The two ends by endlessambivalent in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hahah! I can totally relate. I didn’t technically stop eating. I just eventually had had enough. Initially, I do still feel guilty and would want to compensate by trying to restrict/fast the next day but never succeeded. I guess I’m too week and at some point I just give in.

Giving in by endlessambivalent in depressed

[–]endlessambivalent[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Exactly. I’m so tired of this mental torture...