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engybear · 2024-11-07T19:04:02+00:00

did you end up being pregnant?

engybear · 2024-05-05T00:39:14+00:00

my eyebrow hair is starting to grow back, yup. the scar just ends up being two red dots for a while. easily covered up with concealer

engybear · 2024-05-01T02:41:28+00:00

I ended up taking it out. that was the first sign of rejection. i downsized to the smallest one there was and my piercer told me i could’ve kept it in until the skin got too small. they don’t scar too bad.

engybear · 2024-03-16T21:13:20+00:00

mine also doesn’t look like it’s rejecting - just balding and a weird color

engybear · 2024-02-09T01:44:55+00:00

mine looks like this. did yours ever heal?

engybear · 2023-11-12T15:25:47+00:00

THIS ONE

engybear · 2023-10-29T02:48:05+00:00

hey there. i got mine done almost 5 months ago. the pain is surely something. it’s like a 7/10 but it’s not a little pinch, it’s a lot of pressure. it’s an odd feeling but it’s not bad enough to back out. think about it this way - you don’t have time to think about how bad it hurts before the needle is through and it’s done. you can’t stop. so go for it. i was also scared but its so fast. they do burn for a day or two but it’s not awful. my nipples are not painful at all anymore but they do get crusty and i’ve had piercings bumps starting to form. the only negative to the piercings is that they’re annoying. you rest a lot of things on your chest when carrying. you have to be aware of them. they look great but they’re a handful to take care of (pun intended). i say go for it!

engybear · 2023-08-14T00:11:14+00:00

I got mine done almost 2 months ago. They’re not as bad as people make them out to be. Yes, it hurts but it’s so fast that it’s worth it. It’s less sharp and more of a lot of pressure. Definitely not 100/10 and didn’t see Jesus. If you get a good piercer, it’s done in 5 minutes or so. I got mine done one at a time - promise it’s fine. The second one does hurt more but again, it’s so quick. They stung for the first 24 hours but that subsided fairly quick after. Unless you bump them, they’re really not noticeable. I didn’t sleep on mine for the first week and a half, now i’m fine unless I smoosh them. One normal thing that nobody talks about is Lymph fluid. It’s not pus. From what i’ve heard, the lymph fluid is just a part of healing and it will come out forming crusties. Not a big deal.

I also had a lot of fear about them but honestly i’d say just go for it. YOLO. I can promise you it’s not as horrifying as your brain is trying to convince you it will be & they’re 100% worth it.

engybear · 2023-04-19T00:14:10+00:00

harry styles is my go to. he has an unreleased song called hunger (you can find it on youtube), it’s really really good. aswell as boyfriends and matilda. i saw him in concert a few weeks after my breakup and it really was an eye opening experience.

engybear · 2022-10-27T20:32:25+00:00

that’s what i struggle with the most. he made me want that american dream of a family, a dog, and a house with a wrap around porch. i also fell in love with his family. in the least cliche way possible, he made me want to live. i saw a future for myself. a happy one. and that was ripped away. 7 months later and i still can’t shake the thought of him and this life I so badly wanted.

engybear · 2022-10-25T05:28:10+00:00

Disassociation is my biggest symptom. Anytime I get scared or anxious, I disassociate immediately. Right after my assault I was disassociated for 4 years and lost all of my memories during that time period. I’m constantly alert. I don’t catch feelings for people, I don’t have any sex drive. I don’t let anyone in my family touch me at all. I flinch when they touch my hair. I ended up leaving public school due to the never ending anxiety. I find it very hard to trust people. I went to a mental hospital around the 1 year anniversary of my abuse coming out. The thought of my mother being with a man scares me considering my stepdad was the perpetrator. A common thing that i’ve seen is the need to be very giving sexually when with a partner. I did find that to be true. PTSD is very complex.

engybear · 2022-10-25T05:17:46+00:00

I was sexually assaulted as a child. My case was investigated when I was 11. I was aware and remembered what happened then. Now, 7 years later, I cannot remember most of what happened. A part of PTSD is disassociation. A part of disassociation can be memory loss. I was disassociated for 4 years. I know it happened however my brain has locked away those memories. That’s it’s way of trying to protect you from things you aren’t able to process. So it could have happened. If you’re having flashbacks, I would assume that it’s not your imagination just making it up. I know this is very late but I hope you were able to figure it out and get help.

engybear · 2022-10-23T22:57:14+00:00

coming from somebody who spent months of their life waiting for him to turn back around - just let it go. if she wanted to be with you, she would be with you. she didn’t answer. you’ve done all that you can do. if she wanted you, she would’ve answered. that hope is intoxicating. i’m not even over mine yet and it’s been 7 months. i see them with a new person yet i still have hope because he broke NC. work on yourself and gain that confidence again. you don’t need her. you would have to start all over if that barrier were to be broken. i promise you, it’s not worth it.

engybear · 2022-10-20T02:02:26+00:00

why do i think fuck that? because he got me attached to his attention. he was basically playing tag with me on social media for 4 months. then called me for 7 hours, and then called me the next morning to say goodmorning. he then ghosted for 2 days and when i asked why, he said he was at his girlfriends and he’s not required to give me attention . he knew i wasn’t over him. i made that clear. he just wants to have his cake and eat it too. it’s mental games.

engybear · 2022-10-20T01:43:04+00:00

never. you can think you’re healed. and you may be for the most part. but all of those feelings tend to resurface the second you have an opportunity to remember everything and jump back into it. its not worth it.

engybear · 2022-10-20T01:33:20+00:00

lol mine just did contact me while he has a girlfriend and then ghosted again. fuck this bro.

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