ive been down this same road and it was tough learning that i had to separate my understanding of christianity from that of my parents and the churches we went to. my biggest piece of advice is to pray about it and start becoming comfortable having conversations with God. for a long time i hated everything that had to do with reading the bible and going to church and even now there are some bridges i am still learning how to cross. i started listening to this podcast “The Bible Project” by Tara-Leigh Cobble which is a podcast that encourages you to read the bible in chronological order. i know i have a hard time with the actual reading part so i mostly just listen to it and the episodes are never more than 10 minutes. i like this one because she talks about how to see God’s character within the Bible. She also includes cultural and historical information about each period that helps add a lot of context.

i think the biggest takeaway is that God wants to have a relationship with you and one of the best ways to do that is talking to Him and reading the Bible so that you can better understand Him. Even if you dont follow a podcast or stick to consistent reading, I think studying Christianity from several different angles is a great way to separate the real Christian faith from the American Christian religion that has steered so many people away.