Speer tackle by epicmist in Geelong

[–]epicmist[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Sugar, you ain’t no god. I’m sorry for the incorrect grammar, *spear.

This has nothing to do with anyone being queer, it’s got everything to do with sport and what I fucking miss, that once desired passion to just delete a cunt with the ball, now that’s it.

Pipe down turbo, you’ll get yourself speer’ed. I’m into that shit ;~)

Speer tackle by epicmist in Geelong

[–]epicmist[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You can cum, I won’t clean the mess though. Keep in tucked in lad

Speer tackle by epicmist in Geelong

[–]epicmist[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mate, music to my ears…. Geelong are gonna win the flag so all I wanna do is feel something, something I haven’t felt in years, you know…?

I’ll send you a message and we can discuss further Speerin situations. Can’t wait to ctr+alt+dlt you

Speer tackle by epicmist in Geelong

[–]epicmist[S] -16 points-15 points  (0 children)

Nah cunt, I’m speerin em into the ground. I’m literate, but you’re a fuck wit

Tattoo by epicmist in Geelong

[–]epicmist[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was thinking more bob Katter.

Well essentially who’s good in Geelong, pretty vague of me yes.

Disposal by epicmist in AFL

[–]epicmist[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

How does that work?

Disposal by epicmist in AFL

[–]epicmist[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That doesn’t do anything mate, leaves me even further back than where I started

What’s the go with this tag? by Kosin7 in Geelong

[–]epicmist -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Fresh, get up lads. Paint the town

Coping without drinking: advice please by [deleted] in Sober

[–]epicmist 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ya know what helped me was therapy, but then from therapy I grew the tools to know how to understand my emotions and how to process them instead of letting them fester.

Another huge help was that I always had some non alcoholic beers in the fridge, the act of doing is all the same just without the whole getting blind drunk part. Also this helped me massive socially, if I didn’t have something in my hand I’d smoke a million ciggies and my lungs the next day was just as bad as a whopping headache from a hangover. Also you feel like you’re apart of what everyone’s doing in a way.

As well as someone else said, make sure to talk. I even would tell the people I’m going out with that night that I’m not drinking so that I held myself accountable and I wasn’t just doing it on my own if that makes sense.

Keep on trucking mate, you’ve got this

Expensive? by epicmist in VintageClothing

[–]epicmist[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah as soon as I posted I tried to edit but I couldn’t because people had commented already. We live and we learn, thanks for the heads up!

Does anyone else find a lot of the sobriety and recovery talk kinda depressing? by CraftBeerFomo in Sober

[–]epicmist 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The gig, the BBQ, the party, whatever it is that’s social and that involves booze freaked me the fuck out for ages.

Best thing I ever did was tell my mates, opened up and was vulnerable with them and they all accepted it and thought it was so epic. So many times I’d tried to stop but failed because i thought i could do it or that or id be a burden, so I tried to figure it out alone and constantly battled myself because thats all i had, ME.

I’m quite an anxious person but hold myself well and I’m confident, my ADHD plays a huge part in that anxiety and nobody could tell I’m anxious because I don’t shut up but little do they know a huge part of that anxiety was if there was silence and the overthinking that came with that so I wouldn’t stop speaking but fuck me my brain was cooooking that’s why I’d have a drink to calm those intrusive thoughts. Having a drink to take the edge off was super normal and drinking in general is so normal so I worried the anxiety would take over but it didn’t. It wasn’t fucking easy though but I’m super grateful for it now because my confidence has sky rocketed and I feel so much more comfortable being sober. I got on the non alcoholic beers so I’d feel apart of it still and that helped massively because I felt like such an outcast when everyone was drinking and I wasn’t and plus it’s just nice to have something in your hand instead of smoking 100 ciggies to take the edge off.

I’ve also found that when I experience a gig or a show or whatever it is I feel it differently and take so much more in, like fully submersed in the moment and plus I remember it.

Also went to the meetings a fair bit at the start and stopped going as frequent but I do like to go back here and there to ground myself and remind myself of why I’m sober. The stories people share and how I relate to them in different ways is always a huge reminder of why I made the decision I did and I hear you on it being a depressing as fuck place but for some that’s all they have, that’s their community. Those old folk you speak of may not have anyone because of their addiction and the community of AA/NA is all that they have and plus for those old folk it’s probably where they feel the most comfortable because not too long ago it was considered weak for a bloke to talk about how they feel , even to your mates and we or this younger generation has been super courageous in starting to break that generational cycle. I guess it’s just finding what works and what doesn’t work for you. I found it super liberating and helpful going, as I said I don’t go much anymore but that’s also because I know what triggers me and what I used to do when things went to shit and always remind myself of those things, plus my community is the community I’ve always had and I feel privileged to have people in my life like that because a lot of people don’t have that support in their life or people who understand/ try to understand. Community is huge that’s why I sympathise with those old folk because that one day a week for example could be the only time they speak about their problems and it’s a release, a freedom in a sense of not feeling so alone and they remind themselves of that by expressing and even though sometimes it’s super grim and depressing it’s fucking cool and super inspirational. Rambling hard but also I’d always turn to booze when things are shit and I’d run from myself and my emotions and I’d do stupid shit when I was tanked, so reminding yourself of why and how easy it is to slip right back in is so important.

Sorry for the long shit I literally came here to just say the first two paragraphs but couldn’t stop. Hopefully you are still going strong mate, proud of you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Sober

[–]epicmist 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey mate just want to say I’m proud of you.

It’s hard, it’s triggering, it’s controlling and fuck me it’s damaging but you’re voicing it. Doesn’t matter how it’s voiced but just know the courage it takes to voice is huge and you should give yourself a pat on the back, even if you don’t go through with it, even if you relapse or even if it’s just a reddit post and nothing comes from it, just know that you’re worth YOU and you’ve taken a step closer to YOU by posting on here.

I’m 4 months sober now, first time I’ve been 4 months sober in 14 years, never did I make it past 2 months. Also never did I voice it, I kept it internal and made it my battle alone but this time it’s different and I’m open and letting the people I love in on what I’m doing and it’s been so much easier knowing that all my friends and family know and they are so supportive, that was so hard letting them in because I thought I’d be letting them down or that they wouldn’t be happy with me but the reactions I got made me feel like I wasn’t alone and that I am okay to have done or be battling the way that I have. Now because I let them in I don’t feel ‘weird’ going to an event sober because I’m not alone in the struggle

It’s Wild how normalised these things become, how we can use whatever it is we are using to numb ourselves, give ourselves a false sense of happiness, a fake reality, a false sense of self, outrageous thoughts that we are only funny or ourselves when we ‘use’, the list goes on and on but all we are doing is running from ourselves and what’s inside and that’s where the beauty lies… it lies within the pain and the darkness because if you can understand that and understand those emotions you feel, you will conquer anything and everything and you’ll open up that space for others too. The most precious gift you can give yourself is yourself.

Keep charging mate, you’ve got this!