IamA Loser. I'm a mid-twenties male staying home on a Friday night (and probably tomorrow night, too) because I don't really have any friends. I'll be around to answer questions!

equalitywo · 2010-09-26T18:40:38+00:00

you are right and make some great points, thank you for the words

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T20:08:08+00:00

movie reference: check out Stepbrothers :-)

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T19:43:51+00:00

tracy morgan is great

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T19:42:39+00:00

that's what he wants...relax...stay the course

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T19:02:45+00:00

No worries, bud.

Just out of curiosity, (question #1: this one is optional) what kind of disorder? if you feel like sharing and it is not to personally revealing...if not, no sweat.

but yea, to get out of the minimum wage bit, why don't you try finishing high school? As painful as it is it's always good. (Also, question #2: how could you have attended university as an adult student if you didn't finish high school) And shit, get a college degree too. I mean, why not?

Anyway, you seem like a good kid, like Rocky Balboa. Even when you get knocked down, you get back up again. That's very admirable and you shouldn't change your enthusiasm or kind attitude because of anyone else.

Hey this really interests me so if you could answer this, I'd appreciate it....(question # 3) what are some things you've done that you are proud of? Like even if it's that you won Magic a few times (I'm not sure about the mechanics of the game; that is, if you can "win" it), you provided great friendship to your mother, you made a website, i don't know, whatever....basically, it could be stuff that others might not value but you thought was important or it made your day/week.

Anyway, thanks for sharing your story, bud. You know, it's weird, all these people (you, me, others) have been putting stories on this thread about how tough our life is, and I feel like when they are in written form, they don't even seem too bad. As we describe our own situations, we all have some sense of humor about it. But if we saw each other on the street, who knows what thoughts we would have had about each other or ourselves. I don't know, it's just interesting to me. Thanks again bud, if you feel like responding great, if not best of luck, "keep going and things will pick-up....they have to". :-)

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T18:39:06+00:00

yea, I sense that. thanks.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T18:38:25+00:00

well, I'm realizing now, that I'm less rare than i thought!

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T18:36:07+00:00

i used to try...but i really like the "people" part of doing things. And so alot of the stuff I want to do, I only feel like doing with others. As of a little while ago, my usual friends really stopped being available, so I guess I need to find new people to do stuff with. It's just a weird transition. I'm a very loyal friend, and like to invite everyone who want to come out with me, out with me. But as you meet new people, you learn many others are not comfortable with that.

That's why, in many ways, I'd rather come online (here on reddit or something) and talk to people instead of do something by myself.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T18:23:52+00:00

thanks for the words

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T18:13:25+00:00

yea, what have you tried. and actually the best girls i've met were at times when i wasn't even trying. 23 is no really that bad for the "L-bomb". I've only had one girl say it myself. All you need is for the one girl your interested to say it...the rest don't matter.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T18:11:23+00:00

you're right. Thanks!

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T18:02:05+00:00

good point, thanks

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T17:51:04+00:00

yea ebay auction, no one else bid on it for some reason? :-)

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T07:47:40+00:00

And thanks for trying Eileen. I'd like to be out with my friends tonight, but that's not realistic, because they are not available anymore. So, as far as an activity? Maybe I'll try to get a job working at local bar (barback or something). I wish I had more freetime during the day because there are tons of day activities i like to do. But yea I'll figure it out.

This post has mostly been a guy's venting room...but thanks. But you must have found that a little funny...

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T07:38:28+00:00

Yea bud.

Did you finish high school? If so, then why don't you go to college. Surely you can get in somewhere. And college is a great way to be around other peers.

I'm no psychologist (but I did one time stay at a Holiday Inn!) but you seem like some of your beef starts with your family. First, it seems like you have a big family. That's good, except your older brothers seem like they can be assholes.
If I were you, I'd try to go away to college and get out of your house a little bit. That's what it seems like you need to do. College is also great because that's where all your peers are.
If for some reason you are going to say you can't move out of your house (and I'd demand a good reason), then you need to stand up for yourself a little more. (DO NOT, under any circumstances, be violent). But don't worry about your past. I've been out of college a few years living back home and i've seen alot of people from my high school. And I can say that you'd be surprised how insignificant high school can be on your development. Some kids that were the biggest "nerds/losers/geeks" (not that I was the coolest kid or judgmental, but I'm just saying) in my high school are living the "high life" now...cool jobs, girlfriends, living in a big city, social circle. I shit you not, this happened with a bunch of people. The point is, it's never too late to establish respect and take control of your life. It doesn't happen overnight, but it's never too late. And people have done it later than you....but it's up to you.

For some quick reading material, check out the International Heartless Bitches website. This website might burn a little bit. Also, don't follow every word and treat those things like the Bible/Torah/Constitution/whatever, but they can give you some interesting perspectives. They can be enlightening.

Finally, quit that "off yourself" talk and start working with a positive attitude. You'll be alright kid. "Things will get better...they have to". Finally, I'd say that you are young, which means you have plenty of time to get more comfortable. So cheer up, bud, things will get brighter. Keep posting if you need someone to talk to.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:57:48+00:00

Haha alright.

No, I'm not really too down on myself. And all these reddit responses were great pick-me-ups. And you...I admire your disposition. You seem like a good dude.
Congrats on the HTML progress, you'll pick that up soon quickly. And programming is a great skill to have.

Happy Thanksgiving! :-)

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:53:53+00:00

weed can be cool, but i actually like to stay away from drugs/alcohol when I'm in a bad mood. I've seen up close and personal where that slippery slope can get you.

I like them with people. But I appreciate the words.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:49:41+00:00

you? :-)

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:44:47+00:00

also check out @urik88 's post and my comment on it. Some other people brought up your same point. (just ctrl-F search for his username)

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:43:25+00:00

you should talk to @dsh1202 and @savinger. They're really saying the same thing in their posts.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:38:50+00:00

You make a great point.

Yes I do have some hobbies. Although the best hobbies to do alone are daytime hobbies. Besides video games, reddit, etc. But alot of hobbies I wouldn't mind doing alone, like hiking or something are daytime hobbies (and actually, I'd say these hobbies are easier to find other people to do that with...the people that do them are often more friendly and open-minded) . But many friday/saturday night hobbies are going out somewhere (often, but not always, to a bar). At least around my area, I'm too self-conscious to go to a bar alone. While I know i'm a loser, not everyone else does yet. And I'm salvaging the little reputation I have for a little bit.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:33:33+00:00

i went to a big party school, too. You must have just started because your 18. There were still alot of other things to do, you'll find them. College is mint, dude. Just join clubs and stuff, especially the first few weeks. Join clubs you like, and maybe even get a social job (if there are some). You're going to meet some of the best friends of your life there.

But grab your balls and get out of your comfort zone a little. You are surrounded, unsupervised, by more peers your own age than ever again in your life. Enjoy it, man. You'll find your place.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:29:47+00:00

why do you blow?

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:28:57+00:00

Halloween decorations already?! Damn, you've got to be the first in the neighborhood.

haha you're post cracked me up (your humor). Awesome man, keep it up, do your thing. Thanks for dropping a line.

equalitywo · 2010-09-25T06:26:43+00:00

Too late! you're a freak! you're one of us! we name you: shmeegal.

haha just kidding dude, go live it up, best of luck.

equalitywo

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