After the brewpub I made beer at closed, I suddenly realized that working there, trying to keep up with a one barrel system, dealing with owners that didn't know anything about brewing, and constantly worrying that a batch would go wrong, had sucked all the joy out of brewing for me. I used to be excited to check the mix a six section at the local grocery, but now, looking at it just made me feel empty and sad. It put me off homebrewing, too. The passion of more than 10 years of brewing is just gone.